08.02am

Cant remember the last time I didn't sleep before a shoot

But good team bought coffee for us so good hahahaha

Thank god the morning birds found each other and a fellow night owl with dry eyes found me and we're sitting in silence on our phones while the rest is yapping away

Lolz

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19.18pm

If it's not for these tired dry eyes cause of contacts and the perpetual smoke machine on set I would be playing the bass right now 

08.39am

Morning birds are called that because they get up early and chirp and make noise!!!!

Unfair that night owls get slammed for hooting once in a while and we must keep quiet and tiptoe through the night but in the morning the birds just AKAJSIWKABDWLPAN + MUSIC BLAST + asking me questions when I JUST fell asleep 2 hours ago lol

Next time they try to sleep i will barge into their rooms and start talking to them too

02.27am

This past week ive just not been looking at the time and just going to sleep when i feel sleepy

And i think my body likes it 

00.46am

I know I havent finished yesterday's story hahah will edit it next time

Cooked two days in a row, who am I 

I think the forced home rest for 3 straight days has made me find things to do 

So my alarm is set for like 7am (7.02am, for truth seekers)

And im contemplating whether to sleep early (aka soon) and get up early to everything shower and mini breakfast

Or do those tonight and then sleep in a bit 

Aka

So funny how it's even a question but ok to be fair, ive been sleeping like 4am-8am, 3am-7am so like im currently strongly and equally night owl and morning bird 

Therefore both choices are not out of the question

I have to reach jurong at 9am later

JuRONG more like juWrong

Thankfully it's a weekend though so traffic wont be so horrible in the morning

Ok im probably going to eat some pasta that I made for dinner and then maybe make coffee and stick it in the fridge for tomorrow

Still contemplating about the everything shower part .....

ps cant believe i packed my specs in my bag at 10pm as if i was gonna sleep right after packing my bag hahahahaha lol 

21.24pm

Ya allah

Something just happened that might be a sign of one of your hikmah

I don't know, probably might never know

But I hope that kid is okay like he promised he'd be

I don't know what he's going through but to be sitting in public crying by himself after I walked by him basically four times

Ok backup 

I was going to NTUC but decided to check out the minimart nearby that just opened

Realised they have everything I needed but no price tag so abit sus but nevermind try cus convenience

Bought my things and like 10 metres away I realise the cashier forgot to pack 2 of my things but i'm like you know what i'll put these home and come back

Walked back home and the same teenage/young adult boy in hoodie sitting under my void deck on his phone was still there

Went home put things, went out again

Walked by him again and I told myself I will ask if he's ok

Ok brb im gonna cook lol

Merry July! (16.37pm)

Sometimes you just drop the ball for awhile for no apparent reason and it's really okay

You don't need anyone to understand, you don't need to beat yourself up over missing deadlines and not doing tasks

You don't have to be afraid of the to-do list being overwhelming because you've missed so much of it

Everyone deserves grace and off days, or weeks even at times

All that matters is you love yourself enough to slowly pick the pieces back up and move forward

All with grace

Patience

Find a hand to grab onto if you need to 

And soon it'll be back to business 

Happy birthday doya alataz, im very grateful that youre in my life even though i may attack u unsolicitedly sometimes because we are both intellectuals (HAHA) but youre still patient and loving and always there for me and I only hope i can be an equally good uncearl to you

Here's to relentlessly chasing our dreams and yapping for hours even though everyone questions how we can talk so much HAHA ♡

Thinking of om too, I still remember that day vividly and how much I wished I was special so god would grant me just a prayer

Keeping mak ngah and family in my prayers and thoughts always

May Allah keep them under his protection and grant them endless strength 

And for all of us, too

Anyway, after a busking audition and ignoring 300 messages of work obligations from all over, i'm recharged enough to pick up the ball again

Even though I just set up the bass to play it I am now taking a break from it to reply messages and settle work stuff hahahah

Ok byee let's have a beautiful day ahead