02.51am

What even why am I not asleep I have a morning calltime

Thankfully shoot place is central 

Trying to have a purely-wallet wallet after I think almost a decade of a more... practical pouch which has my wallet and belongings 

I already dont like having to carry a separate bag but we'll see

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04.57am

Dang it I went from having potentially 9 hours of sleep to 2.5 hours 

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14.41pm

I wished Demi saw her value

Random but im listening to her duet with ariana grande and demdems voice is still my favourite

Come back my love!!! I will be right here waiting for you

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22.17pm

Happy places are real

I have been thinking about how much I miss vivo and sentosa and today I accidentally on purpose ended up at vivo

Needless to say I am happy

19.38pm

I want to reward myself with cheesecake but swee heng is so far away from my house

01.24am

Alhamdulillah we survived today

I thought I wont have energy to even bring myself home, and then to even eat, and then to even wash up

But one step at a time and I even had energy to feed Aryan and put him back to sleep (actually little beby was already fast asleep)

I had quite an eventful and honestly, fulfilling despite the super exhaustion and lack of food consumage 

Another long day ahead, but it's for baby aryan so i will push myself

Ok bye

01.04am

I thought i'd be asleep by 11pm

I was about to

And then I thought about what makeup to do later tonight and now im too excited to sleep 

Gotta be up in 5 hours, a long eventful weekend ahead

Bismillah!

13.35pm

You don't have to be considerate,

But why wouldn't you?

When youve gone through life this far with others' considerations?

This is why in Islam it not only matters your personal journey and spirituality, it's how you treat others too.

We all have our personal challenges and it's up to us to deal with them in our own ways

There is a very fine line between self preservation and straight up self indulgent (I wanna use the word selfishness but apparently it shouldnt be a bad word- i disagree. Selfishness and putting one's self first is a separate concept despite seemingly meaning the same)

Im exhausted.

Snoozed my alarm dk how many times

Supposed to have an appointment at 1pm, then 2pm, then 5pm

But I dont have energy to get up so I might forego the first two or attempt to postpone them

I also havent eaten since last night and I am excited to eat

p.s. white people commenting on world cup's politics are so ignorant lol 

p.p.s i felt real anger yesterday (the last time i felt it was like 7, 8? years ago when someone left my mum and sister at the batam ferry on their own because theyre dumb) because someone shared with me a story of how his little sister got molested while working my blood literally boiled man if I was there when it happened... I could finally punch someone for the first time 

p.p.p.s it was very interesting cause as I felt myself getting angry my brain was like "Oh wow youre ACTUALLY mad!!!?" Hahaha rationality > impulsiveness when it comes to negative feelings always 

08.21am

What business do I have waking up at 8am the day after claiming to miss Sentosa 

I do miss going on weekly hikes

To get the ball rolling again feels not easy

Days like these I want to have the rock's work ethic and self-discipline and the worst part is I know it's entirely possible and entirely up to me

But for now, me drinking a cup of water right after waking up, and doing light stretches will do (in addition to saying Hm @ the gloomy weather)

No matter how much I bluek at the taste

(I can still taste it 🤢)

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09.05am

And which hellish neighbour of mine is playing music SO LOUDLY at this timing

Idiotbox I hope someone knocks on your door cant u wait at least 11am

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23.29pm

Absolutely knackered at a last minute job I was tricked into doing lol but 

Very grateful because Allah eased my affairs

I am hungry but tired so iced coffee and lying down session ahead

00.40am

Just settled down from the day

Had a long and unpresent day cause my mind was somewhere else 

The evening shoot was annoyingly tiring

My ryde even cancelled on me cause the stupid ryde gps and inability to SEND PICTURES (???!!!) meant the driver was given the WRONG directions but also he so slenge go follow the gps when it's obviously wrong daheck

Thankfully gotten another one- a lady who actually tried harder to find me 

Im exhausted

Havent eaten the whole day except snacks and drank only 1/4 of a tiny bottle of water 

Now im hungry but my eyes are dry

No link 

I'll probably make myself iced coffee and do my skincare and crash for the night

If... I even have energy for either

May tomorrow be a bigger brighter better day 

You want peace, you get peace.

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14.48pm

When's...the....last time I went to sentosa

I miss u 

19.40pm

Everytime I see anything about gulab jamun I want it

Dang it 

01.05am

The day was equally peaceful and lonely

I feel like the one thing that can turn it around is biscoff cheesecake from swee heng

Why is swee heng not 24 hours

Anyway a long day ahead 

As usual im just excited to play makeup 

Bismillah for the week ahead!

Another week of playing hard (and working hard I guess)

16.22pm

Everytime I make my schedule filled with back to back activities I realise I never slot in eating time lol snacks are important and yummy

03.59am

Long day ahead

May my affairs be eased

At least theyre all things I want to do 

Nothing to complain about

Wished my body didnt think that setting my alarm any 2 digit numbers means I dont have to fall asleep early 

16.33pm

Allahuakhbar.

His promises ring true.

Ive always known it but when he shows it immediately you cant help but weep and laud gratefulness

Alhamdulillah for everything

I can only pray I be a useful member of not only my family, but the community i'm in 

Ease my affairs dear god

12.50pm

Still surprises me at this age people specifically singaporeans dont know that 'Chicken rice' doesnt mean Halal 

Lolol issokay happy to educate

05.21am

Had a really long day, (literally 22 hours being outside) but somehow now after getting in bed, im not tired

Maybe because I spent the day doing things I love, around good vibes and ended it with people I love (over heated and then very silent board games)

Alhamdulillah for today

Best part is, I actually have an entire Sunday off 

Wont be surprised if I woke up at like 9am 

22.43pm

I have a full day ahead, gotta leave home by 6am 

Morning shoot but thankfully nearby home alhamdulillah

Rehearsearl and then watch Muara

Quite exciting (im mostly excited to put on makeup lolol)

I shant force my body to sleep but... if can that'd be great lol 

Merry November (10.47am)

Expansion. Joy. Progress.

Leading with heart.

Life has been sweeter since the little one arrived in our arms.

Of course, we look at life through a totally new and different set of eyes

Everything is intriguing

The way the baby moves, or makes a tiny sound, is enchanting

Leading with heart more than the brain.

I shall keep going

November is good, it's opportunities and courage