17.47pm

Blogging didnt even cross my mind and then suddenly it's the last day of September

Everything was going well, and then I asked for strength

And then I lost 3 job opportunities back to back

I guess be careful what you ask for hahaha

But, I am thankful for everything that has and will 

Im a little tired from making decisions and spending time with people who dont really appreciate 

I hate corporate world so dont come near me

I just want to crash a bit but also im not ready to take a break from hustling

09.29am

See!!!

Hazrul got 2nd place last night

Once his nerves are controlled it was easy guess that he'd move up the ranks

Now Fuad's turn lolol 

Anyway im just laughing to myself at the malaysian fans calling him teddy bear i mean not wrong but sorry you are officially Hazrul 'teddy bear' Nizam now

So funny this is how monickers are created

02.54am

Of course the day I have a calltime at 8.45am is the day im fresher than a cucumber

May we all have a blessed weekend insyaallah

Should I eat dinner now

Lolol 

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12.46pm

Im almost home, after working in the morning

Office hours cant relate

(I know it's Saturday but still... hahah)

Now im torn between napping before rehearsearl or just going out to seize the day 

I do what I want okay

Heh alhamdulillah for today, I met so many familiar faces and met new people too

I even took public transport and reached 1 minute earlier than calltime okay despite sleeping in (I even got iced coffee while doing makeup)

Thank you for easing my affairs Ya Allah

May I always be someone who does the same for people around me 

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21.59pm

K I always see netizens slam our national footballers in fb comment sections so im like isit they critical cant be that bad what

Then I watched the livestream of the match tonight and im like ??? what are they doing 

Like are you just conserving energy cause it's just a friendly 

Then we watch for what better u all play on your own closed setting ahaha 

I thought we were on a roll what is this lol but it's ok lucky I find the concept of many people chasing 1 tiny ball funny

Ridiculously, calltime is 7.15AM tomorrow

My heart is abit excited cause the shoot will be in SRT- where HMX had our Remembrance concert im not gonna cry or scream but I know it will be cold

I just chopped off a bit of my hair lol and then of course immediately regretted it but the last time I did it, my hair grew so fast!!! I was so excited so it better happen again

Gotta make myself rest soon honestly my only concern is my eyes being too dry for contacts

Ok bye

02.09am

Travelled a total of 3 hours to NTU for a 50 mins work

Mama was right, not worth it hahaha but to me just now I was like eh it's still better than sitting at home

Now im physically tired for no good reason but wow my extrovert side came out strong

Calltime tomorrow changed from 8.45am to 11.45am so im very thankful and grateful though I CANNOT find the black dress I was so set on wearing dang it

Did I mention I got my passport yes I did hehehe

I was tired since midnight but was encouraged to eat dinner so I ate dinner at 1am so im tired but with energy 

What am I even saying k bye la

10.58am

Yes 12pm is not early but when you factor in travel time and getting ready, it's basically 10am

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12.24pm

I. Got. My. Passport!!!

After more than 2 years of procrastination (great call on my part, everyone was forcing me to renew my passport in January 2020 but I kept saying wait wait and I really waited 2 years lolol) 

It only took me 5 mins of sitting down before they called my name

In total, I spent 9 mins in the ICA building (cause the signs were misleading) 

So yes going back home now for food

I can literally go eat lunch in Johor nothing is stopping me

00.24am

The turntables

My body is currently like Ok we are abit tired let's try and sleep

My brain says But sleep is so boring

Lol

06.55am

I have a calltime in 49 mins but I cant drag myself out of bed

Only two days of cat nap nights

The thought of putting on contacts is just

Blearghhh 

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11.51am

Alhamdulillah I did it, currently back in my pjs and in bed once more 

Wrapped 75 minutes earlier which is great cause my feet were dying lol ok not complainin my job is easy 

Ready to crash so im just unwinding now

02.17am

Me all these while: wah why scott nvr release single siar his voice so amazing

Scott: releases his debut single

Me: oi no go back to ptx

01.20am

Everytime a doubter speaks to me in my left ear, the universe speaks louder in my right

Thank you for this faith and courage I do take it for granted sometimes but I will always find fire within me

Watched Air force just now

Surprised that I actually enjoyed it!

Cus I dont like action movies zz whatmore military lol but great job Malaysia, I had to remind myself this was not on a normal level, to have a movie about the AIR FORCE dang the shots were muy bien

Also I thought there'd be more scha but nooo but loved seeing her on screen anyway 

Mat kilau i mean lejen is indeed legendary hehe

Ok bye um i dunno i enjoyed it and proud of the malaysian industry

Wait for meee 

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04.08am

Yes @ malaysia; normalise married couples being love interests on screen!!!!!

Much more sweeter and palatable when theyre real life husbands and wives i cri 

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14.33pm

99% of the time I dont like being reminded of my age, cause age is just a number im forever young and young at heart yada yada 

But that 1%.

That 1% wants to remind everyone that I. AM. 2...5 6 fine 

Literally too old to not be trusted

That 1% wants to remind everyone-

Let me fly 

Let me make mistakes and be crazy

Soon i'll be 30, and you all will sooner ask about settling down and starting a family, and we'll get to it when we get to it

But for now,

Why don't you WANT me to enjoy my youth?

You know what (totally unrelated)

I havent felt sleepy, in fact I was so fresh I proceeded to have breakfast at 9am to just start my day

I forced myself to sleep between 12-2pm cause I have a last minute online casting (idk why I even thought I needed the sleep but I know me I guess)

Please, I only got 20 minutes of sleep at best ahahah

Now my eyes are finally feeling heavy and it's almost 3pm

Maybe another hour nap and then start my day

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15.36pm

Sometimes I do things and a small voice in my head says (in a Gabriella voice) ; you're crazy wildcat

But I love feeling that way!!!!!

I love doing things that even I raise my brows at after the fact

(Like how I used the phrase after the fact)

K bye lol so active blogging sleep dont want 

07.42am

Umm how come im not even sleepy

Good i guess

03.26am

That one day crash is a fluke 

But at least im awake fully and not sleeping and waking up thirty times throughout the night

00.45am

Abang long fadil 3 really reset my entire mood man 

THANK YOU 

I wished I could live in this high and light always

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01.44am

Taking advantage of this high by crossing of things from my to do list

Me everytime I do something: You are so brave girl wow that was great

I love it ahahaha

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15.18pm

I feel like just going to watch abang long fadil again and just laugh like crazy in the theatre ahhaaha

Also so funny someone shared a punchline by jep "My mum is so funny... she's the only person who makes doughnuts without the hole"

I love comedian's brains

(It my brain)

04.23am

When I tell you I crashed probably around 930pm

Grateful I only woke up probably twice but barely and managed to go right back to sleep

Feels like it's been a week straight of non existent rest so this was a great miracle

K bye

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15.58pm

My reflex when people ask my age is to say 23

Pandemic years really were fake for all of us yeah no ofens

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23.20pm

Heart is full

Thanks to my bestoes (yol + jozan)

Heheh thank you for forever making us laugh until we almost faint

02.59am

Tonight the grab wait was real

Darn you clubbers 

Waited almost 2 hours but the surge was continuous

In the end gave up and booked cab

It cost 15.80$ with promo code but no thanks to nets admin fee it's 16.10$

Usually grab is 10.80$... ouch

Apparently the meter itself is 9.35$ but midnight and booking charge 

Anyway it's 3am and I have a calltime at 9am

Not even gonna try to sleep 

No idea what time the shoot ends but here's hoping a surprisingly quick one

I sometimes dislike going someplace to do hair makeup and wardrobe cause it means going earlier for no good reason (i.e. i can get ready myself)

But if the calltime is 9am im happy i dont have to get ready myself

Also I anyhow bought a niacinamide serum and I realise it's actually working??? Lol i guess it has to seeing the ingredients but like what a lucky random buy 

Ok buenas noches (funnily enough my brain always prefer buenos noches and buenas dias I guess cause same vowels) 

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08.01am

Man I think I fell asleep at 5am

And then woke up an hour later :-)))

Noped and then slumbered again

And then didnt hear my alarms but of course I woke up from people smsing me lol thank you yol and mama

Still contemplating between bus or grab

If I grab means I have time to coffee and breakfast

If I dont do those then I can take bus 

We'll see

01.44am

Was sleepy at 10pm so im like wow thats great I have to be up in the morning and I have a full day ahead

So I forced myself to rest

Oh I managed to fall asleep somehow which was a miracle

And then I literally. Woke. Up. Every. 20. Minutes

So now I just give up trying lol no forcing anymore bro

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11.28am

Rough night but at least I got 3 hours of sleep 

Not me suddenly binge watching dnp and then WHILE im watching danyul just uploads a video with pilester 

At a shoot and of course just waiting 

I should run a business so im working while im waiting

But what can I sell

HAHAHAH so not a business minded person I dont even like capitalism 

K bye

00.54am

Referring to my 8th June 2022 post, the only reason I miss blogging days is cause I lost track of time and day

Ahahaha 

Anyway im barely into my 2nd month of officially being a freelancer and ive done 16 projects

It's way more than ive ever anticipated but the best part is im only just beginning

Cant say enough how happy I am to be on my own schedule 

It's definitely not easy especially in this baby stages but I only have good thoughts, feelings and perceptions about it 

Alhamdulillah and I am motivated to work even harder

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14.03pm

Rough night as usual lol keep waking up for no reasons

But have vivid dreams which is fun sometimes

Did I mention I caught the livestream of Sentosa's 50th birthday and it made me want to go hahaha

I can go like now but like don't really feel like going out

Supposed to be the first in Singapore to watch Abang long fadil ahaha

Im excited and cant wait jozan wait for me

Also im not very tolerant of people this past week like my understanding self is taking a break and now im just like "meh whatever do what makes you happy" to everyone

It's just passing though deep inside im still assuming the best and trying to see things from their pov and blablabla

Which planet is doing renegade now 

Lolol (mercury i think) 

23.57pm

Finally got my SIM card changed

What even

Anyway im between time and places since turning 26

Cool whozzy xmas-new year kinda feeling

New beginnings and exciting things ahead

03.52am

Body clock is very undecided

Fell asleep 9am-3pm and then 8pm-9pm

Thankfully work is at 3pm later l

Merry September (08.09am)

Isit im back to morning birdness