The weather being hot and cold is making my body confused and thus im just all around uncomfortable
Eek
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19.17pm
Wifi has been down for 2 days now hello singtel
And conveniently I have a work deadline by tonight
So like what am I supposed to be a venturer and go out for wifi
I'd use my hotspot but circles is not reliable too
Pffft
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22.01pm
I have no strength to move and sit in a cafe to do work
But soon it'd be 2am and I wont have a choice
Hi I did work for the past hour
But like of course when I have the mood the software lags and my contacts becomes super dry
I wanted to continue but suddenly best thing ever the file wouldnt even open
Not even loading, mind you
It just does nothing
I double click I open with nothing happens
So okay I did all I could for now lolol
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18.14pm
Super first world problem but today whole day wifi is down, and now suddenly my 4g decides that not working is the cool thing to do now
So like. What the heck which planet is doing renegade
What time did I even sleep probably a bit before 4
Also does this mean im back to being a morning bird but also night owl cus I still cant sleep at night
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15.38pm
Lol sis kept napping
I feel like I want cookies or browniez
Why so rainy
Got woken up by so many things the past 3 hours that when my alarm rang, I texted mama saying Hello excuse me im awake as if she's spam calling me to wake up
Lolol then I realised noone texted or called it was my alarm (and i unsent that message hahahahha)
But for real sis just fell asleep and an hour later, body clock woke me up
2 hours later, humans talking to me
3 hours later, A PHONE VIBRATING in the living room- im sorry i thought vibrate mode is supposed to be quieter so HOW DID THAT WAKE ME UP
And then 4 hours later, a spam call that I just straight up rejected but like What the actual heck, a spam call at 8 freaking am???? What is WRONG with you and WHO sold my phone number to these spam companies im gonna find u and chop ur fingers off
And now, my alarm rang
Can u see how unpeaceful my rest was.
Whatevs
I have lunch plans but if I fall asleep again due to exhaustion i give up
Freakin blogger making my post disappear
Had a lazy sunday before deciding to go out after dinner
Now content and ready to face the new week
Had such a fun day!
Went science centre again and didnt manage to see all again- 3 hours is NOT it!!!
Which just means... go again hehehehee noone is complaining
Ate desserts delicious and then played pandemic for 3 hours before walking in the silent town and heading home
I should rightfully be exhausted and sleep but noPe I have so much energy
Is it cause I put pressure on myself to get sufficient and good rest tonight so my body is like Haha how about No
Cus why am i awakeeeee i have activity in 8 hours
Right after I finished watching Azkaban last night I opened FB to see the release date announcement for FB3 the title gave me goosebumps!!!!! Secrets of dumbledore r u kidding and IT'S COMING OUT SOONER THAN EXPECTED im the most ready but also waittt but also faster
Hahahha kay
Had a lovely day yesterday, it was so sunny but malls are so cold so my body is confused
Ate delicious nasi padang (although it was 9$ which i still shook by but i have learnt to expect the worst) and ice cream which is ALWAYS YUMMY (i still want netflix n chilld b&j you did really well there also thank you for making it one of the halal flavours I luv u)
And then I wanted to have adventures but period exhaustion hits different like I didnt have strength to stand or walk much hahahaha like can la but why would I
THEN watched POA and napped so much
Chiqatito's PSLE is next week im so shook
Here to hate on post credits scene
Just end it proper
Annoying
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16.52pm
UGH I miss rehearsearl this is not okAY that we're not meeting weekly im angry
Everyone ever who meets me for the first time especially if we liaised over whatsapp first; you like undertaker ah
Imagine if I was like "Who?"
Hahahaha but yes for the record I am him thks
Yes, why in the heckity am I awake
Litrally woke up at 6.40am alarmless on a sunday yesterday but of course im still awake at 5am the day I have to head into the office it's like my body is rebelling against mySELF
Worst part is I actually have a long day ahead
No choice but to hope I get to nap at least for the next 2 hours or so, and rely on extrovertness to wake myself up
Bleh
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07.09am
Got an hour sleep even though I could afford 2
My body woke up fresh as if it slept 4 hours
U better dont turn on me in the office later and speaking of office,
Why the heckie is WFH not a default yet again
Even if govt doesnt mandate why cant companies be brighter
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12.02pm
No joke the only thing that can keep me mildly awake is listening to mj12 cus adrenaline makes my heart pump blood to my brain I guess
But literally by my side I have been shuffling between taking sips of coffee, reapplying eye drops, face mist, and mentos
Now I have resorted to writing backwards for no reason but hahahaha yea only mj12 is working
Got a new job scope today- tedious excel documents but I honestly think im kinda done? But like I dont want to be too sure so i'll just give myself till the end of the day muahaha
Ok in 26 mins I can take an hour nap
Also it's super cold ugh ew
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18.32pm
Survived the first half of my day.....
Thought I could get an hour nap before embarking on nighttime agenda but you guessed it once my head hits the pillow it wants nothing to do with sleep or rest but now that I have to get up and get ready suddenly tiredness is spreading all over my body
Ridiculous hahaha
But ok I shall minimize my get ready time and let my physical being rest a tad more
May tonight's stuff go okay and just cause im exhausted- not last that long heh
Also im no longer friendly extrovert so we'll see how that goes
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23.52pm
Ex
Haus
Ted
!!!
But I survived
Yet another journey of life caused by a Yolo jump dont think moment is upcoming
You know how much I love capturing moments, via words, photos and videos
But ive never done them with professional equipment so thats like a thing I needa get through loL
Watch me be best photographer using bad cameras
Ok i'll share more tomorrow
I survived a long day and I shall crash and hopefully be a morning bird tomorrow
Here's to a beautiful day ahead
Had a beautiful 2 days!
I finally, finally went to... SCIENCE CENTRE yesterday!!!!!!!
But but the best part is, we couldnt finish even 2 out of the many exhibitions!!!
Why best part?
Cause it means GO AGAIN!!!@@@!!!!!
We spent 1.5 hours in the Da vinci exhibition where we learnt and saw in person the masterpieces I invented (yes im da vinci shh secret)
(Also Hello science centre 3 hours of visit is not enough pls bring back whole day operating hours soon thankz)
The weather was so beautiful and it wasnt crowded so it was amazing heheehe I had tons of FUN but not enough yet so wait for us science centre!!!!!
Today, met yol for "bowling" but while waiting for the 1hr+ waiting time we watched shang chi (aka kung fu panda called, they want their movie back HAHAHAH) and then zoomed to play board game! (Singular cus we could only play 1- pandemic)
It was super hilarious cus the last time I played was years ago with hmx so in our first round we were secretly like why so easy (in my head i was like i remember this being more fun and challenging) then we realised we shortcut SO MANY things hahahaha we make ourselves laugh
Then after beating the board once on the beginner stage, we went straight to hero stage and we died twice very quickly cus dk why the epidemic cards were so close together lolol
We had lots of fun also and so funny that suddenly yol revealed it's actually my birthday outing ahaha
Alhamdulillah for the very enjoyable weekend (friday is weekend also la okey), here's to a restful Sunday ahead and then back to work on Mondayzzz
(Notice the zzz)
Hahaha ok bye
I dont make the rules but corporate people are Idiots.
Also I always want to fight disrespectful selfish people but I always find their behaviour beneath me anyways so I always end up either ignoring or just say my point of view and then abandon
Had my 2nd and last vestibular physiotherapy yesterday!
All was good cause most of my vertigo symptoms are gone, (most, not all yet but that would take time too)
The doctor is so cute like she's so cheerful and nice hehe very good at making me feel comfortable
And then watched harry potter and napped a lot
So now im like freshly awake
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16.04pm
Me: gets a new phone case from mama
Me: puts it on my phone
Me: throws my phone to see if it's protective
Nope just cute
Lolol but at least it doesnt slip in my hands but like no I do not really trust the cover yet it would need to earn my trust
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17.28pm
I guess sometimes when you cant seem to find peace within yourself no matter what you do, the next best thing is to shoot it outwards
Praying and wishing well for others, giving them a kind word
And hopefully in extrospection our internal affairs untangle themselves
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23.35pm
Feeling the sleepless excitement I get before an excursion, or camp, or outing
!!! Hehehe
Just stole mama's blanket for a few moments but im already too cold it doesnt help
My hands are freezing im surprised i can type this right now
Also im at the malfoy's manor scene in deathly hallows and im not ready for it to end
And the nurse walked past me and she asked "is that harry potter?"
Ayy
We've been here since almost 11pm, so im very surprised i havent caved and asked for my own blankey (this is a typo but it's ok)
Ok i admit i thought either we wont be here for too long or this one windbreaker can keep me warm but alas
I. Am. In. Cold. Pain
No idea if i'll even go to work but as of right now im still feeling ok and awake
Perhaps I should just take an urgent leave anyway i have to work half day today cause of an appointment at 4.30pm- so i'll be here again in less than 12 hours how fun
Ok bye lets hope i generate enough body heat
Also times like these im grateful im a night owl who has little needs
Im made to survive the nights
Thank u
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06.46am
Just splat and defrosting
I hate when i escape from a cold place just to land in another cold place aka mall to chilly outside air or like tonight ER to grab
Half of me is still considering going to work but honestly I dont think it'll happen
Though im not that exhausted right now and i could do it if i wanted to but at what cost
Of course the day I didnt have to be up at 7 im up at 7 because my entire being is a natural rebel so dont tell me what to do
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13.40pm
Sis dk why she exhausted lol
Had mini adventure last night eating food I didnt really want at Al azhar (i was looking at oxtail soup but too many choices I chose kway teow goreng pfft hahahahaha)
And then being super full we got lured into Malayan council (we were supposed to just look at the menu but the waitress suddenly led us upstairs and sat us down) so we got forced to order cus 2nd floor to exit is way too far hahah
While waiting for cake I said "this shop is known for giving free things like cake" and sure enough, they gave us 2 slices to takeaway
Bless your kind hearts!
Amidst exhaustion and too-fullness, managed to walk to selegie centre to take a bus
Crashed not long after reaching home
Now im thinking about oxtail soup again and I think im home alone idk i dont hear any noises from the living room
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16.12pm
Sometimes I look at tall people and I think how are you real u are so long n extended Lol
Why is it I always cant sleep on worknights
It ok I will create my own adventure after work zz
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08.40am
Barely got 3 hours of sleep bleh
At least I managed to have breakfast wake up my system a little bit
Why am I in the office
Me knowing full well wrestlers begin training at a young age and i am far from that fact
Me: (anytime doing some sort of exercise) how am i gonna be a wrestler now
Lazy day, wanted adventure but 1) dont want crowd 2) noone felt like going out besides me who could push myself but hmph they dont want
Me last night thinking to myself cus ive been falling asleep past 3 again: i should try adjust body clock a bit
My body waking me up at 8.30am today: how come im awake
ThAnkz
Also I thought today saturday until mama texted her breakfast at work
Lolzerz
Heyy how come im not asleep i have to wake up in 3 hours
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07.19am
It is Not ok that i have to go to the office today ughhh
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11.38am
How is it not lunchtime yet and how am I gonna get through the next 5.5 hours of work
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19.10pm
Just got back and settled down, tired from the boring day but also the 1.5 hours travel back home cus there were no grab drivers zz but is ok i got lucky in the morning when it was more important haha
Kay im probably gonna crash idk i cant even tell
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20.24pm
Today is the first hmx prac ever im missing, since the day I joined
What a weird weird feeling
Had a lovely day yesterday despite it beginning with 2 hours of sleep and far away gojek drivers aka I had to cancel twice cus wtheckie why u so far and still accept my booking but it's okie I got work in plenty of time muehehe
I was occupied with work so time flew, got to nap during lunchtime and got a ryde back home- didnt bring lunch and didnt even make coffee but I got snacks from my supervisor and mama so hashtag blessed
Went to vivo for oxtail soup afterwards, so yummy!!!!!
The waitress kakak was so cute I raised my hands and she shouted "cabe? (chilli)" and then when she delivered she was like "gue udah bisa tebak (i could guess what you wanted)" hahah my new fren
Tried macs kopi frappe and also forced to use my brain for many hours talking about racism and philosophy hmpH but fun hehe
Slept in extra extraaa today, I only got up for real at about 4pm wew
Just a relaxed day and trying to calm my agendas like trying to decide what is exciting and what I dont really want to do as of now
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20.25pm
I want and need to see lut and fahri >:( theyre gonna grow up so fast like lut can already hold his own bottle >:(
I give up i cant keep my eyes open hashtag just contact lens things (inserts peace sign here)
So now I have 3 hours to sleep before dragging myself to work
We'll make it a great Monday okay I will be equipped with coffee and a blanket
(needless to say the temptation to take leave again is strong lol)
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06.30am
Good morning
I agree with the above in brackets
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08.57am
Im in office. How
But also do your best and leave the rest to God
So yeah my legs hurt
Specifically the thighs which is weird cause usually calves pain but now is not
Which is even more troublesome cause you use your calves to sit stand step up step down
Ouch
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16.57pm
Hi. Im a changed person after finally watching Teddy ballinger's birth vlog
I have put it off because wasnt ready but I just did it and now I have been changed.. for.. goooddd
I cry!!!!!
Just so many things about the vlog
Ive never felt like Favouriting a vlog before but this one I dont know why maybe cause teddy himself made us WAIT for his arrival
The music chris chose was epic
Bailey being an angel sweetheart making me imagine (and failing) what it'd be like to be a Girl mum
I cant see myself as a girl mum but also maybe cause 8/10 of all of the babies ive interacted with are boys only izzah and mairah are my babygirls
When they were saying goodbye before leaving for the hospital this 13 year old lady just said to her mum "You are going to do amazing, I love you"
Like who says that which 13 year old SAYS that
I was 13 when chiqa was born and i wasnt that nice HAHAH but also I just dont talk anyway
Then Chris just being an amazing supportive husband (I think there's no words to describe Jess in this case cause she was supermum giving birth)
His inability to stop smiling at the mere thought of holding his baby is like his first child all over again
But then amidst the crying OF COURSE Duncan had to be FUNNY he walked to the vlog camera instead of the facetime on the phone looking for his baby brother I replayed that at least 4 times
And of course actual baby teddy is such a cutie precious gem I cannot wait to see more content of him and how the rest of the family react to seeing him for the first time
Ok I got this off my chest just what a beautiful vlog im thankful I got to see it
(2% sed he wasnt born on my birthday but hehehe he had to be evacuated anyway)
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23.06pm
Have been working non stop for 4 hours
What a person
And this person also cant wait to be so done
WE NEED TO TALK
I just came back from a surprising event called Dance training
The two years of break? I felt it
Honestly I havent even recovered from coming back into the scene after a decade of absence
But also I didnt know I was DANCING!
I thought just miscellaneous things but nope full on learnt 2 new choreos last night
The warmups triggered my vertigo- the whole head stretches and then looking down
And then the dance has a lot of spins and fast paced squatting and standing
Sis couldnt but she did it she survived
Honestly dont know if i'd have fully recuperated by crunch time.. which is noW hahaha.
Idk i'll try again next week and see how it goes
But also if anything, my body is just not a dancing body- Hasnt been for about 9 years
Interesting thing was, ok I usually am very quick at learning and memorizing choreography
But just now the whole first dance my brain wasnt even capturing anything so I literally had to attentively copy the choreo from someone else
And I was like Oh my gosh How the heckie did I ever memorized anything and How am I gonna do it now
But halfway through suddenly my muscle? brain? dance? memory returned and I could memorize most of the steps
Currently feeling good cause post dance always feels like youve worked out,
But my legs are aching from trying to do double steps dangit it used to be my fav footwork to do now I CANT hahahahaa
Also it reminded me how anti social I can be lolol
I hope I dont wake up with more new aches but right now I can safely say my whole body is aching- even my WRISTS from doing INANG
Lol if past me sees me currently she'd never let me take the break it's not easy to pick up and recuperate
Honestly at this point of time, I dont know if i'll be able to do it, but im willing to try.
So I guess goodluck to me
Woke up and the first thing I saw on insta is a photo of teddy ballinger who yes is born and he.. looks like DUNCAN
I cant if he grows up to look more like baby duncan i am not ready for the too much cuteness
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11.45am
My life is either super lull or super busy and I appreciate both phases
But ive been in a lull for so long im excited for super busy season- in fact im actually actively looking for it
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13.33pm
Love mornings
I can do nonsense and check the time and Oh it's only lunchtime now!
Also miss being backstage. On stage.
And like ive been able to force feed myself positivity the past 2 days cause troubles come from external sources and it only hurts me because i care
But when I react well, hopefully in turn it'll make them feel better too
Yay
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14.57pm
Eugh the whole reshare feature on insta sucks actually they keep going downhill since they stopped chronological feed order
Loser
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16.49pm
Omg i love it when children baby toddlers sit on me without permission like Hello u think u boss is it can sit anywhere u want but u so cute i wont put u away
I just watched a vid of a baby anyhow sitting on people and i got reminded of how funny it is hahahaha like cmon so much space in this earth and u sit on ME
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23.13pm
Pop culture is me singing "To sound like T-pain" and chan xian yang responding with "I'm already doing it"
The more the merrier
Thank you, August for rocking as usual
May September contend you in positivity, blessings, health, wealth, happiness, love and light ♡
Amin
Back to office in 7 hours, Bismillah
May I (and you) always be the person who sees good in everything and everyone
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08.07am
Of course, of course the day I have to be back in the office I fail to be a morning bird
Where is the person who wakes up at 5am no matter what time she slept
Lol
It's okay I put myself first what I want goes (dabs)
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14.16pm
Pay attention to when things go right
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21.24pm
It's been a testing 2 days, but I managed to react in a way where I choose my own outcome
Which is beautiful
I chose to be patient, and optimistic.
I chose to be involved, to communicate and to make things better where I could
And now im at peace with myself, waiting for chiqatito to finish cooking her famous fried rice to be eaten on this rainy night
In other news, went to chinatown for a bit to buy beads for chiqa's business
Loved being out of the house even just for a while
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22.53pm
Before the day ends, let me just mention the teachers who I fondly remember enjoying, in no particular order (except the order my memory is trying to recall from)
Ms Rekha, Mr Seah, Kak Wefi, I remember Cikgu Suria, Cikgu Endon and Cikgu Siti too
Chaissac (Mr Chai and Mr Isaac is a 2 in 1 package) Ms chan, Ms Seah, Papa Liew, Mr Sng who gave me a lollipop just cause I did my social studies corrections for once, Mr Amin and Mr Iwan for never questioning why im skipping PE (specifically 2.4kms)
Cikgu Siti, Mr Zachary (these two, I no idea what they teach, I was never in their classes- they were just the kindest souls I came across in MI where most failed to be understanding and kind) Cikgu Mardi for always being generous with us
Andrew- for being my favourite prof even though I dont talk to him or any profs for that matter
Earl and Cherie
Abang Mok, and Abang Rizman
Cikgu Azmi
I have been blessed to learn from the best