02.29am

Im just starting on essay 1!
Aiming to finish around 4am or so
Funny cause the thing that made me excited to do it is I was at the fridge and tokti's song Terang was on the radio and it was so positive im like Yay I can be done with all my work in 9 hours and then party
Also im being kind to myself and doing my essay on my phone cause sitting down on my laptop is not a thing
Ok bye wish me luck
Oh wait today was pleasant!!!
I reunited with los españyol niños, my bahas gang 4 lyfe for syuh's wedding T.T
Feels like years since we met but when we met it felt like no time has passed at all :')
Missed them and cant wait for more catching up!!!
Then went to daddy's friend's place for singing and the whole family was so pleasant, welcoming and lovely so wholesome
The food was great too (and the food at syuh's wedding too????)
Took a peaceful and longish bus ride back and got greeted with snackS im happy
Ok bye

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04.42am

Mental breakish
I aimed to end at 4am but meh if I set aside five hours for my 2nd essay means I have one more hour to finish this one
I knowww I shouldnt take more than 2 hours for 1 essay but when youre working on internal push and lack of mood producing an essay is more than just writing it's reading thinking deciding erasing and redoing
Boo
I'll resume at 5am I am halfway done with essay 1 anyways.
Yay me please dont be sleepy but more importantly essay 2 please be funner and easier

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06.24am

Exhausted. Struggling to finish this one essay all I want to do is leisure
Thinking if I should anyhow finish then submit then start on the other one, or start on the other first and come back to this later.
Cant remember the last time I pulled an all nighter for freakin homework
Lol also past me will be like Why are you bothering pls choose happiness
Hahahah I agree

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07.17am

@ me spamming my blog lol
IM DONE WITH ONE AND HAVE WRITTEN THE INTRO PARAGRAPH FOR THE SECOND ONE
Indeed the second one seems to be more fun but but buttt I hope no weird concepts come up while im writing
I just keep the prof's words in mind "i'd rather a creative and very wrong essay than a correct but boring one"
I'll give you creative and wrong indeed
Hahaha jk (or am I)
Less than 4 hours to the final deadline!!!

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08.03am

The temptation to take breaks is real but no im storming through
Alhamdulillah the essay topic is indeed easier and more bullieveable (hahaah bullshittable + believable im a genius)
K bye

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09.25am

I just need about 500 more words!!!

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10.27am

Miracle happens when you stop caring and expecting
Lolol
Im doneeee!! I survived this sem also it's the best sem in terms of my work submission ive never submitted assignments so diligently before
Also elephant has got to stop listening to trash (esP ariana grande) music every morning it's killing my brain cells and ear happiness
So do I sleep
Oh yea I havent shared about my fun Saturday!
Walked with the fam from grandma's place to 89.7, it was such a lovely walk and our grandma is FAMOUS every 2 steps got someone say hi
She is sharpay evans she is ME
Had good food, and good laughs
Walked back to grandma's place while the adults took the bus hahahaa
Played cluedo and took videos
Already planned our next meetup yay

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21.25pm

I cant remember the last time ive been this free
The lack of harmowork especially
Feels weirdddd also I miss hmx

11.25am

Tired, 2 events today, less than 24 hours to finish 2 final essays
What did I get myself into
I should cancel one of the agenda right
But first I need strength

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19.05pm

I didnt cancel any agenda
I got energy from socialising cause im extrovert
So now I just need to get home before midnight and I have a solid 11 hours to finish 2 essays

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22.44pm

Tried starting on one but my brain is lazy to read so im gonna take a nap or at least rest my brain first
Final 2 essays for the sem lets go!!!

12.59pm

Cant tell if I rested well or not
Hahah but plan today is attempt to do at least 1 essay while at grandma's house around my cousins so we need to see if thats even possible but keyword is try so heh

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22.41pm

Had such a fun day today and looking forward for tomorrow too but no mood to do my essays but I want but also when hahahahhahahahahaahah

05.46am

Slept for barely an hour and got ewwish dreams lol
In my dreams I was like Ok time for sweeter dreams
Lol

11.10am

Getting my hair wet in the rain right after I shower feels like when it rains right after you wash your car
Im not a car or a carowner (pronounced ca-reow-ner)

01.32am

@ me reading my own instagram captions and laughing hahahaha im my favourite comedian
Quite pressurising choosing a song for top 25
I dont like competitions and I always dont take them seriously, like i'll choose songs seconds before starting to sing, or i'll submit any song titles without thinking and caring and then when I hear the song im like Wait did I really choose this???
But people around me are so supportive I feel like im doing this not for me which is I know not the best mindset but it works for me like it makes me care about what song im singing what key how I present myself
Eww
But also this will be my first time singing solo with a live accompaniment? I cant even remember but I believe so
I still cANT CHOOSE A SONG!!!
Random reunion with north pole later today though so thats exciting hehe also yol's last day of work before she progresses in life
Also I plan to start on one of my 2 final essays (!!!)
And play board games
And make videos with them
Quite an exciting day ahead even though impromptu huhu
Yee
I need to choose a song by 6pm and I have like 12 on my list (and growing)

01.18am

Sometimes I wished I could fall asleep easily but sometimes only la
Nights feel long and when it's uneventful it feels dragggyyyy
Welp
Wouldnt mind my morning bird self returning anytime soon

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04.33am

I dont understand how my body is not tired I dont nap in the day
I love it but the thought of falling asleep is so impossible
Like right now I cannot imagine closing my eyes and drifting off to sleep lol
I have been waking up early still though so ive been getting 2 hours of sleep ish

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13.25pm

I dont know if it is possible to peak at teenagehood cause I feel like the person I am now is too emotional and I do not like it if 17 year old me were in these situation she'd have rocked it and dealt with it in the most badass way
Im tired of feeling
Except happy i love happy

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16.57pm

@ me tearing up cause a music producer (?) who had worked with tina turner, whitney houston said tokti was 'most definitely' in their calibre LIKE YES finally someone is smart and said it

07.59am

No idea what time I fell asleep what a blur

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16.43pm

Im avoiding all Survivor series undertaker related news because I DONT WANT TO CRY.
NOT NOW.
NOT EVER.
:(
Im not ready my heart is still weak

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17.06pm

I have 1/3 final essay due in 6 hours and right now I feel so... like negative mood to do it
I started a bit but I was just like Meh
Hahahahaha help internal motivation come back soon oki
Hopefully the adrenaline will push me to do it

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23.22pm

Im done and submitted
And here comes the moral dilemma in me
Was it better to submit a half assed or not at all
Hahahaha jk
Im done
And done!!!

11.10am

Sleepy
What am a cool person like me doing at crowded geylang on Sunday morning
Family lunch yay
Im wearing pretty earrings given by chiqa
Also I just finished my audition
Went quite well I guess?
2 more rounds ahead
I was excited but once it sank in that I have more rounds the feeling changed
I smell sushi am I dreaming
Yes im roaming around the mall alone waiting for everyone

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21.29pm

You know im tired when I take a nap and I dont naturally wake up after exactly 2 hours
Took an almost 4 hours nap??
I hope it means I have energy for essay hehe

03.11am

Did I mention I lost my morning bird strength
I still have the tendencies aka waking up early (also have been sleeping back at usual wani times) but I dont feel rested and I go back to sleep which during my morning phase I did none of
I wake up ridiculously early and just kickstart my day
Question: Why cant I SLEEP
Literally started watching a 3 hour video cause I am that sure I wont fall asleep so easily
Oh wells
Excited to film things

04.54am

Was ready for a productive triple whammy day
But did little work
I cant say I did no work thats not true hehe I read things
A miracle, my paper due today was extended to next week :')
But I still have chart due later tonight

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23.28pm

Genuinely tried to do the chart(s) and I just decided to not do it
My happiness comes first HAHAHAH
But I did start on one but meh let it go
Went to learn more editing stuff instead
Wopwop

01.00am

Was supposed to finish my essay yesterday and do charts today
But parkinson's law is working against me cause im used to doing things on the due date so starting it early is incomprehensible
English
Haishhh how
Also I reaaallllllyyyy want a snack
Why do i not have a snack
Boo

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03.03am

Why is it that the day I have 3 final assignments to chiong I cANT SLEEP
Dont get me wrong im not doing those hahahhaha im playing 700 rounds of freecell while listening to the ballinger's podcast
My eyes are heavy but my brain just wants to not rest
Cmon

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07.46am

By this time I need something in me to awaken and put me on autopilot like it has done before im lazy to think

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08.50am

May this delirious and tired state of mind be the very reason I accomplish all I have to do today
Hahaahhha
Also I think I only managed to fall asleep a bit after 5??

17.39pm

Gone from doing nOthing to multitasking very hard
Can you believe I have a random audition this Sunday
Thing is after circuit breaker im happy to take any and every opportunity that comes my way
Also I really want to get more comfortable singing solo hahahaha the loneliness is real
Ok back to... whatever 4 things I was doing at the same time including choosing a song and replying the organizer and writing my essay and submitting forms

04.00am

How interesting
My body had been making me wake up every hour and lets me fall back asleep but the hour I wake up for real I feel very well rested
I fell asleep I think 2 plus last night though
Had an impromptu outing yesterday literally decided to go out while I was showering

14.23pm

It's never too late to be a better person

02.12am

Got home, slept, woke up, left home
Didnt blog
What an eventful two days of rehearsal- arranging, learning and recording all at once
How efficient and fun
I missed the intensity
Time to sleeeep
And wake up to eat chicken and edit video huhu
Happy birthday anga and ele the fat twins ♡

01.43am

Guess my body got used to the late nights so I no longer feel tired enough to fall asleep before midnight
Tired yes sleep no
And I also dont wake up as early as usual
Boo
Try to reset tonight but also dont want to force myself ehehe

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05.48am

I see the 4 hour sleeps dont mind it but miss waking up feeling well rested
Also had nightmares about attempting to reshoot a thing I watched last night

03.57am

Woww dreamt that I made myself iced coffee how disappointing to wake up realising I dont have it
Also I fell asleep at midnight idk why im awake now

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10.50am

I miss the days when im watching WWE on tv and the logo appears at the bottom during an intense part- which means it's end of the episode and it's so upsetting but also made me look forward for next week

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14.55pm

Cant wait until my heart gets it
I have 10 more days until the 3 months mark and I dont know how okay I feel
But on the bright side, I know I will be eventually

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15.48pm

Tell me why duncan is TOO CUTE

23.38pm

Done with one task!
Now I either can use tomorrow to rest and recuperate of have a headstart on either my essays or the music video editing
Deep down in my heart I want to do all of it at the same time

07.21am

Yayy got my 5 hours of sleep but was it worth the cause aka this was pure exhaustion oof

02.10am

First time in what feels like a long time since ive been unable to sleep
Nooo

18.23pm

Me tries to eat a veggie
Veggie drops off my spoon
Guess it's not meant to be

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20.00pm

Pretty sure ive said this before but I feel so bad when people say they like my art when they saw it at an unpresentable state (but to be fair when have i been presentable ok fine once during Anjung adat maybe hahahahaha)
Im like Nooo i can do better
But it reminds me that art from the heart overlooks quality
And it makes my artistic heart soar with joy and humility
Poetry unintended

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22.45pm

Accidentally having a productive day
I know, weird but hahahaha yay me
Rewrote and submitted my philosophy of science essay
Editing the video
What am I doing
I love it though

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23.52pm

Aghhh I have reignited my love for editing
The pain is lesser than the curiosity and end goal now
Im excited

04.25am

3rd day in a row retiring late? Dont even know
But what a fun day even though I have blister forming on my right foot specifically thanks new shoes
So fun singing with earl always haish

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10.37am

Had a few fun dreams but my eyes were too heavy to wake up and type lolz

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19.25pm

After an enslaught of full day activities the past consecutive days I cant tell if today is relaxing or boring actually more boring than relaxing have been home all day doing nothing like I want to edit the music video but i'd have to put on my contacts eughh can my specs just reappear infront of me already im tired of looking

09.46am

Have been sleeping late (4, 5am) this past two days but I wake up at before 10 I love how this is my "sleep in"
I mean I have heard of people who wakes up regularly at 7am and their sleep in is 9am and I found them freaky but here I am lol

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11.56am

You know whats funny
Every morning I go to the kitchen and hear the same thing on the radio- a male DJ trying to be funny and the female one being polite and laughing
Man's not funny
Ahhahhaahha funny

22.20pm

Still a morning bird, enjoying it

10.33am

Almost forgot how much I love demdems' voice

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11.42am

Help im trying not to laugh watching shawn michaels' videos

05.02am

Fulfilled all my agenda yesterday
My eyes is even more painful idk why but perhaps it means I should spend today in isolation rest my eyes

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13.35pm

Baby and child grinch is so cute lol but also I really want to edit the music video but my eyes hurt still so today I shall do nothing but recuperate
So happy to see my calendar fill up again :')

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20.18pm

Um am watching royal rumble 2010 and suddenly thought of Brothers of destruction getting inducted into the Hall of fame I can scream
Whatever it it, kane and taker, i wanna be there for their induction haiz

08.12am

Good morning
Tired but have 3 things on my agenda today including a journal and a test- both I havent started

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08.54am

If you see me being extra cool these few days dont worry im just back on wwe hahaha
I really want to trouble in paradise someone or sweet chin music just for fun
Also my eyes hurt how can I wear contacts

Merry November (05.32am)

May this month be filled with blessings, joy and love, Insyaallah!
Good morning, I totally managed to fall asleep after eating half of my burger last night, idek what time though the fam was watching Mulan in the living room I just retired out of exhaustion lol
Hehehe yay me

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07.14am

Watching the 2010 royal rumble and forgot how much I missed seeing cena in the ring :')
Come backkk