Selamat hari raya aidiladha! (07.36am)

Oh no why am I not asleep
Honestly dk the plans for today but im just excited to dress up and eat

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10.03am

Im honestly baffled as to how mothers (or anyone) have the stamina to be in the kitchen for hOURs and DAYS for raya prep
They deserve beyond the world just for that honestly
That and my hand stings from chopping chilli
Ouchie

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11.42am

I tried everything
I soaked my hands in dishsoap water
I soaked my hands in water
I iced my fingers
But it's just there
Also maybe the fact that I was touching burning flour with my bare hands before settling the spice burn helped make it worse
Now my fingertips are both burning and burning
Also I have no time for a nap so I have to keep myself awake
But I also dont like waiting for other people (especially elephant) to get ready because they (she) takes SO LONG i'd rather be the last to get ready
So now im just chilling I wish my fingers would chill too but nOPE
Im not being dramatic okay u dont have my fingers u cant feel my pain
I dont even want to type cause it hurts
Ok im gonna ignore it until it goes away
MIND OVER MATTER

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16.38pm

WHERE IS STYLO

20.27pm

Ended up having a lovely evening yesterday although plans were pushed 2 hours back lol
Took a long bus ride just to nap and ended up in pasir ris
But ay the company is what matters
I havent eaten today I should

02.54am

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06.00am

Hate hate hATE the latest youtube app

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09.42am

It's 2020 and I still dont understand why Indah gets Dilon PLS LA so annoyingggg
Also I managed to get 1 hour of sleep
Ridiculous but what to do
Ate breakfast again and now drinking my undrank bubble tea from last night
I feel like I might want to nap before going out though but I also need to cook
I can afford another hour of nap probably between 11-12pm or something aish

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16.43pm

Ive never experienced this- where everything I do is wrong or judged
And it's coming from unexpected sources
And it gets tiring and it hurts at times
But im also great at ignoring so I guess im fine
Hashtag lol yolo swag

07.19am

Im quite happy
I think I fell asleep around 5 and got a solid 2 hours
Except when I was awakened by chiqa flipping her just-shampooed hair before she went to school
But wow
It's enough for today
Im gonna go make porridge for breakfast just to wake myself up
Quite excited I have been wanting to eat it a while now!

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11.05am

Restarted putri duyung hahaha I think I was at episode 96 before I took a break cause I didnt want to finish watching it so fast but now im back at episode 6
This makes it the 2nd time im rewatching from start, and the 3rd time watching the series albeit incomplete
I tried to watch the original one from Australia which is soooo similar (first episode at least) but reading the episodes descriptions feels like the indonesian one tops
I mean cmon, Randy pangalila (!!!!)
And of course Luna maya as ratu duyung pls laa hands down win
Also the acting is not as bad as the australian one hahahahha not sorry oof k bye
Also im already thinking about lunch
Also guys I finished the black pringles, the spicy chips or something it is delicious I wanna buy more huhu
Ok bye

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13.10pm

I should eat lunch now to get my body clock used to societal norms

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19.46pm

Look at me eating all 3 meals today!!!
Also have never been in a restaurant where the servers had to explain the menu to me so this is cool
This place too fancy it has an open kitchen

07.33am

Aishh I hear raya songs on the radio ;')
And it's Salam dunia aka the song I purposely sing the most annoying possible and never stop because hahahaha it's a masterpiece
I cant believe I have a harmowork related meeting in 2.5 hours
I'd better just stay up then

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11.49am

Just ended the meeting
In my heart I want to make plans but it's rainy (ok fine stopping) and i havent slept
I should nap

20.55pm

Happy birthday my nenek!!! ♡

08.02am

How does one simultaneously feel high and low at the same time

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23.31pm

MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS ARE HAVING BABIES
What is life im so baffled
I think im easing out of the hibernation mode, didnt sleep more today which is excellent
Missed out on meeting qisti and leila though i sad but there's always another time
Going to nenek's place tomorrow to celebrate her birthday!!!
Hehehehe

07.17am

I have zero reasons to sleep at all today I better not do such thing

08.58am

Biggest dilemma of yesterday was whether to buy fried kway teow or kway teow with tom yam soup
Lo and behold the shop sells a set version that is fried kway teow with tom yam soup at the side
My hand is cramping my whole body aches
Accidentally took a nap by the sea it was so lovely and best part was my clothes material were anti-sand so I just stood up and no sand huhu
Walked from siloso point all the way to the end of palawan beach wew
Saw singapore from a different angle- took my breath away honestly
Oh shiz I didnt even realise I still have my contacts on right now
Whatttt so trippy

05.33am

Would it be too much to hope I fall asleep within the next 2 hours

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07.42am

I think I wouldve been able to fall asleep just now at 6!!
But suddenly my brain wanted to see videos of me dancing
So I went down nostalgia spiral
HaiSH

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07.54am

Not that I need a second opinion but should I eat cheesecake for breakfast
I strongly believe it's a brilliant idea

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09.29am

Guys it's a miracle
After I ate cheesecake and drank my coffee, I went to COOK
I made buttermilk chicken cause I think mama used up all my lemons to make her herbal tea hahahaha I wanted to make lemon chicken but
The end result is so nice from the taste test!
I just dk how to gauge portions like I think all my sauce-based cooking so far I always only cook for 3-4 people my family is 7 people guys hahahaha
But I dont mind cooking twice I guess
But also I need to yolo and throw in things in there which I already do but perhaps in bigger portion
Ouch my thumb stings from the chilli padi why i never even touch u
Now I can either take a nap until noon, or go out and hike labrador or something
Hahah jk I hate the mask life
Why is the sky not as blue as the past few days PLEASE BLOW THE CLOUDS AWAYYyYyyY

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10.27am

Well my eyes are heavier than before but my brain is just ready to be stimulated
The sky is beautiful!
Mornings are so great
I can afford a 3 hour sleep before I have to be human again

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12.37pm

Went to sleep and woke up to thunder aiseh
It's ok hujan rahmat
But way to wake a girl up but also lucky cause I had laundry drying outside and I managed to bring it all in

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15.45pm

Got to taste a bit of my cooking before leaving home and it is delish!!!
The issue is how do I replicate it cause idk how much and what I put
Oh wells
Also I napped when it started raining and woke up to the rain stopping so hashtag bless
The sky is blue again huhu
No idea where im heading but lets goo

22.22pm

I finally slept before 7am
But at what cost
Had a lovely evening with TYLO last night!!
Met rosa but I kept calling her qisti which means I need to see qisti and aunt soon huhuhu
She was so cute i feel like cats are too cute like their faces are like a cat i can stare at it all day and it always BAFFLES me how people can afford to hurt these creatures
Same with babies
Abusers are disgusting creatures
Same with litterbugs
I hate litterbugs with a passion
It's so telling of who you are as a person (losers)
Why am I saying this
Um I wanted to say we played Saboteur (which makes me think of boardgames nights with hmx which I misssss so muchhhh) and Singaporean dream or something (which was so fun and I woNN)
It was a lovely reunion
And we're reuniting again this weekend so yay
Have been watching a lot of art related competitions like now im watching body painting and fashion designing
So inspired but also I cant move cause I have little willpower
But school starting soon is making me feel quite meh
I love the holidays hahahaha ok bye I guess

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22.58pm

I just for the first proper time since the event watched our champs 2018 performance
Definitely not as bad as I remembered it to be
Power of hindsight i mean peripheral vision
HAHAHA no cringe here just pride cause of how much we've grown!!!!!
Yay hmx

04.12am

This time last year I was still up settling concert stuff especially front of house, and only stopped cause I had to leave home already to go to SRT
Fun day

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08.06am

Meeting stylo today no idea what time but shouldnt I be asleep
But excited cause finally meeting rosa who is a kitty cat
Which reminds me of qisti and leila
Which reminds me of Earl
Which reminds me of the tonsss of text messages I havent responded to
Which reminds me that ahahaha I should find something to do

Did I mention ive always wanted to make my own clothes
Not necessarily from scratch more like taking ugly things and making it nice
The drive is strong

06.22am

Let me just tell you I resigned to looking not top notch for the Rise up video
My makeup was done in 5 mins, I didnt do my hair and the lights made me feel not fresh at all
But we turned out cute
Alas, I wouldve traded not looking nice with a better sync for the audio hahahah like I aint even commenting on the balance but the sync :')
Knew we shouldve pushed for a master audio recording instead
We tried but alas
Also watching Glow up and Next in fashion is making me so inspired to create
Such a cool feeling I havent felt in a while

23.07pm

Supposedly this time is when we celebrate post concert success and hang outside SRT deciding whether to picnic there or find food
We'd be so proud of ourselves
But it's not meant to be this year so hopefully we can get back on track soonest

04.31am

I must try to sleep!!!
But to be fair I just ate so the likelihood is a bit far
Ok fine at least before 7

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11.56am

Hais. I shouldnt sleep
I forgot to
But im not sleepy or tired so that's swell
On with the day me guess

13.20pm

Idk why but I have a Zoom audition for a mod in 40 mins which means I have to get uppp
Do I test my voice or do I just yolo and sing on the spot
Idek what song to use
I need to put on human clothes
I hope it goes well! (and doesnt take long lol)

23.56pm

My daily routine has been routineless
I feel like a nothing
Did I mention i met somemonix last night at sentosa it was lovely I missed them

11.11am

Tell me why I have watched 1 season of Victorious
It was supposed to be ironic and a mindless time passer
I dont seem to feel sleepy yet so now is a good time for lunch outings but people have wORk nerds

22.47pm

What a lazy day
But also yesterday was lovely cause got to reunite with somemonix
It felt like the 2 3 months of break didnt happen but I still missed them
Sang by the beach for a while albeit not too goodly but my heart is warm

18.44pm

The sky is so pretty

22.07pm

Just got forced to roll a big dough into hundreds of little ones
Haish lucky end result is nice haha
Had a real lovely day yesterday, despite the election results lol but I hereby cease to care since disappointment can come in many other forms
Went to the beach and planned to cycle but ended up not doing that
It was so crowded!!!
But my heart is full

02.32am

Rough night
It's hot and cold
Im both tired and had too much rest
And most importantly i feel like if i dont watch hsm within the next few days im gonna faint

Also unrelated but it'll be my first time ever voting in less than 12 hours
Ive said my stance about this before and I stand by it
We'll hope for the best.
I just dont want my life to be so expensive loser

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09.46am

My body decided that 10 mins of sleep was more than enough 
I wanna nappp before going vote
Pls let me nap
Also why do my OWN writings make me CRY AND LAUGH im my favourite writer

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11.32pm

So... selfish for us to have elections right now
I am so angry thinking of the disposable gloves being wasted
I scoffed when I first saw the "possible scenario" in the past but now theyre making it come true
It better be recyclable or at the very least biodegradeable because this election is not worth hurting mama earth over

18.05pm

I guess the tiredness continues this period so weak ew
But also why is it so chilly i slept without my fan off the whole day
I cant open my eyes but I dont want to fall back asleep

09.27am

I think im back on track and less hibernaty also I was totally right I had been so sleepy because my period was coming hahaha shouldve known
Fell asleep at 6ish and idk how im up now because I had such epic dreams (SEE NOW I FORGOT THEM cus I woke up trying to understand why im not tired anymore) and also it's raining which should be making me sleep even deeper but nah not the case
Had a lovely evening of new Banditos and trying to fight the urge to buy cheesecake
I just have too much cream cheese to justify buying instead of making one hahahah ishhhh I must make it soon
Official HMX handover tonight, which marks the end of my run as chairperson.
Idk what to feel but what I know is after today, I only have one more official task to complete before letting go and taking the mentor role instead of the server oof
Okay may this rain bring upon us abundance and blessings insyaallah!

08.20am

Actually dont feel tired or hungry or dizzy so it's already a better morning
So im brightening up my day watching ballinger babies videos
Hahaha currently watching Duncan's first day back from the hospital and it's making me miss Ayden ♡
Gonna go see him as soon as im allowed to hais

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14.26pm

Had such exciting dreams but I was too tired to write them down whyyyy
I remember one scene only haha

05.23am

So am I hungry or do I just feel like eating
Ok im sure it's both
Hahahaha
Managed to sleep for 2ish hours earlier today
Havent had an alone night in so long not sure what to feel about it hmMmm haha ok drama
I think I want food

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06.25am

Suddenly got very dizzy
Not sure if a result of watching bad vlogging jobs (not mine), lack of sleep, too much sleep, or lack of food
But now im hungry and dizzy and the easiest solution is to fall asleep
Which is funny cause it's nOT HAPPENIN

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07.15am

Have to toughen up this heart
It's the easiest way I can be selfless

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10.13am

^ random emo moment lol
Also I didnt get food
I dont know how but watching food videos made my hunger less isnt it supposed to be the opposite hahahah but yay it worked I guess but also it is breakfast time so I should eat soon
And I gave up on the idea of falling asleep although the dizziness is still very much here
Eughhh
Is this the right time to announce that I have been watching a series
Too much emotions and I remember why I hate serieses because the wait is painful and when it ends it's even more painful
Ew I have no heart

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20.38pm

I think I know why I have been so hibernaty and lifeless
Cause I feel like I dont have total freedom
I feel like a caged bIRD
Not even a fancy bird

19.51pm

So hibernaty today
Taking lazy sunday to another level

07.06am

Fully nocturnal mode this week
Thought I could fall asleep by 5 but who are me kidding
How am I gonna have a weekend afternoon plan
If I end up waking up at 11am latest again it's best case scenario

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18.59pm

Have been watching the champs live streaming since 2pm, so weird to not join
But I saw two bois mentioning Hmx in the comments I cant describe how amazed I feel that we are assimilating and slowly becoming a household name too
To me it feels like we're still baby, still unknown and still lonely
But thats not true at all
And I cant put into words how surreal it feels.

11.27am

Fell asleep before 7 and I thought I slept so long cause I had such an eventful dream but it was 9
I even forgot my dream cause shook at the time hahah

08.53am

Im a person who doesnt sleep
Also did Stars for the first time in many sems because the circuit breaker apparently gave the finance office time to not mess up my payment status
Hah

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15.37pm

Woke up to the sound of intense grass cutting and before I could even think of groaning, I thought about how unkempt the streets had been without anyone maintaining it for the past 2 months plus.
And i'm thankful instead.
Thank you for keeping our sidewalks prim and proper

Merry July (05.01am)

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