HapPy spooky day (08.55am)

Today I got reminded on why and how cabbing became a habit
I can do so many things in a short span of time
And sense of time is distorted cause travel time is halved
Aka im paying mustafa centre a visit before work at 10am so despite it being a high risk sport I still can even consider it lol
Ok have a great day ahead like I plan to!

11.33am

I have been sent for lunch
LUNCH
At 11.33am
Needless to say I declare it naptime I might regret it later when it's afternoon and hunger visits but for now I just wanna rest lol

02.46am

I thought I wasnt gonna work today but I am
Quite impressed over this life schedule but I mean my motto so far if I dread something take a break or cut it off totally
I've been doing that (my tolerance is high so "dread" has to come with genuine unnecessary problems too) maybe that's why i'm still okay with working cause no hay problema
School too hahahahah jk
Like I said, right now getting that degree is more for my family than for myself
My interest remains in learning philosophy and I feel like i'm learning more on my own outside class than the ones I pay so much for (well not me but thanks government)
Had a lovely day, even saw Khali!!!
It was weird to process that she is now a WIFE
I'm gonna go scream now brb ahahah jk
Gotta leave home in 5 hours bleaghhh

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08.04am

Oof didnt want to grab today but obviously exhaustion took over
But it ok i'd rather rest more than be half awake at work lol
May all go well!

11.49am

I woke up exactly at 9am wew
Also dip and pip appeared in my dreams and I woke up to philly's new video naise
K

00.05am

Well that was a lovely evening of family and food!
Though I was lowkey tiredish I was just chilling by the pool for hours so that is cool
Now im gonna try and sleep but the ballingers just dropped baby Luke's birth video so I have to watch it hehehe
Also I think like 6 humans in hmx currently have shiny nails HAHAHAHA including jing yong who is in malaysia loll love it

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18.39pm

Lowkey want to go to muara but eh we'll see
I have about 20 mins to decide ahaha

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19.39pm

Napped and lost sense of time I thought it was 10pm when it was 6pm ahahaha
But also no muara for me this year cause the thought of getting ready is just... no thanks
The night is still young and im tired of sleeping today so idk what will happen OH Maybe I will end up editing

09.06am

Isnt it inhumane to make people meet on Saturday mornings yes it is

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11.33am

I love mornings
Somehow woke up feeling good and well rested, and stepping out the door into the sunshine just energized me further
Now i'm by the bay sipping latte and this is great im just dreading the journey home because i'll be leaving home again in 5 hours to this exact same place
But also I could use a nap
But actually I can just hang out at the library and read or something lol
Actually yeah we'll see then but as of now im enjoying this tranquil experience

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17.37pm

Managed to catch a short nap amidst being productive
Im so lazy to get ready but I want to go to the chalet lol can I just wear pyjamas they're silk (pink but still) I mean I can if I wear makeup and earrings it will look like an outfit hahahahahahaa
I think I must bring my laptop to do work + edit video yay

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18.23pm

Freakin blogger deleting my edits
I cant tell if im tired or not lol let's see how interacting with humans will make me feel
Also totally not bringing my laptop cause heavy lol I was so idealistic an hour ago

00.59am

Okay I did it
I'm resting today hopefully I feel better (I WILL) by evening so I can go for rehearsal

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03.26am

Probably gave my body some false hope of normalcy
When I started my collagen drinking career I was great (1 before breakfast, i'd drink it at 7am and 1 before bedtime, 11pm drink done and I fall asleep soon after)
But alas 5th day and im doing 3pm and 3ams instead ahahaha ok will tryyy to get back on track lol

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11.29am

Oof I felt like I have been asleep for so long but it's only 5 hours ahahah
I have a solid agenda today, let's try and fulfill it lol

04.25am

On one hand very relieved I finally have a restish day today, but on the other hand i'm probably already overworked so this rest is a recovering not a recuperating rest
But also I say ish because I have something on in the afternoon like in less than 12 hours
So i'm gonna not set an alarm and laugh as my body clock wakes me up at 6am lol
(hopefully not okay that wasnt a challenge)
Had a heartwarming hmx night but also my voice is tired lol k good mornight

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18.55pm

Adults can be so daft I cant comprehend
Had a focus group earlier on and it's like, most of them (the outspoken ones especially) speak for the sake of speaking- not answering questions and im just like this is basically JC and university life it's so gross lol k bye im tired and am contemplating cancelling tomorrow's work shift

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21.22pm

That was a nap that made me even more sure I need to cancel work tomorrow
But the other half of me is like It's just 8 hours of work but the other half of me is like I owe myself a break im litrally down with the whole package of fever flu and cough but lol I will get well after sleeping and eating probably
Ok time to charge my phone and idk find food what even

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23.49pm

Ughh I typed the I cant come to work tomorrow message and backspaced it entirely telling myself I can just do it lol I even edited to say i'll come late instead of not coming but I cant even omg

01.40am

Ended up having a lovely day, though right now i'm kinda dreading work
At least because today's 9-5 felt so long (it was busy) but it ended well regardless
And seeing hmx is always nice
Alright i'll try and sleep soon

08.40am

Can we believe I left home early only to fall asleep in the bus and miss my stop hahah a rarity but I blame it on the pouring rain
But also thank gosh I left home early, if I were at home no chance of not going back to sleep
Okay now im figuring if I can make it to work on time lol probably yes

06.47am

Good morning but I have no business being up this early I can sleep an hour more

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12.23pm

Tired and severely understaffed
Oh well just 8.5 hours left
:')

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16.44pm

Afternoon slums are hard
Bu-
Okay right after I typed that I got sent to go out and take stuff yAY fresh air omg
But yes from experience I know my body will be awake once night comes in
Just have to hold on till my break and then idk take a power nap
Right now im more tired than hungry so hahaha
Also today is both bad/not because im working with all 3 managers lol
Bad cause im the runner ew bicycle but good cause I am not severely multitasking since all of them knows what to do
Okay im dragging myself back to the office, turns out someone already collected the package but Alhamdulillah for this well needed commercial break ahahah

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22.32pm

Am in my resting mode!
But far from resting
Probably eating after this and then either sleep before 12 and wake up at 4 to do work or power nap, do work and then sleep
No idea but now i'm just leisuring and waiting for mama to finish cooking ehehe
Work went well despite the afternoon crash but true to belief, nighttime went better
My timetable is full to the brim, ironically just how I like it
Because im such a (wait I hear chiqa listening to Just wanna be with you lol) ok yes where was I
Because I love leaving spaces in my schedule for everyone but also over the years I learnt how to be a squeezer
I will make time but also I shall chill
What am I talking
Let me go sort out a to-do list for myself

01.11am

Let me just bravely define my internalisation process as thinking just enough- not too much, not too little
Had a major crying session with somemonix and as said by chloe, "we've been too busy to cry"
Had a fun week, and today two fun things and one sad thing is happening
Fun 1: Alongtito's birthday!!! Omg last year in his 20s but may 29 bring you success, happiness, love and wealth!
Fun 2: VI.SI.TING. MERLION
Sad: visiting merlion
The only reason i have to do that is cause it's the last day of operations
I dont mind whatever crowd they may be I WILL BE THERE

08.02am

A sleepless night after some time but because hmx cannot sleep
We were so confident that we were going to sleep but  alas
The last human just fell asleep minutes before my alarm is supposed to ring
So I guess I should go get ready first idk we're leaving in an hourish
Revonix today, third year!
Excited to see what they are up to but more importantly seeing hmx huhu

ps survived working every weekdays this week! how HOW did i do that and then go for rehearsals at night but also it was fun I dont mind doing it again lol who needs rest

00.27am

Genuinely thought I could sleep before midnight lol

11.36am

Oof that was well rested I missed all my alarms lol but I woke up before the Going out alarm so looks like im grabbing to work again
Starting to feel the tired but i'd just attribute that to the lack of sleep not the hannah montana lifestyle
Right now im still contemplating if I want to push my work shift by an hour or just push through idk
Happy 10th birthday my chiqatito petite D:
God has blessed us with a literal baby angel and I want you to never ever change who you are we love you too much hehehe ♡
Kay gotta drag myself to get ready looks like im gonna go on time wot m8

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23.15pm

I can bet you the only reason I survived today well  is because I brought the birthday girl along
Closing went well too, the parents picked the kids up on time and they didnt mess the toys up so great job bebies (but also cause chiqa is an extra staff helping us all hehehe)
Got ice cream after work and you know what, it's a lovely end to the day
This week has been packed to the brim I had no time to do things beside being present, and my sleep schedule is just being itself, but it feels okay?
Like this could be a glimpse of a year from now when I have a day job and doing aca in the evening (which might be a lie because aca as a dayjob is the real dream here lol)
I don't feel burned out perhaps because I enjoy what i'm doing day and night, even though I lack self care in many areas
There are compromises, biggest one being not responding to any messages at all because when i'm on my phone I just want leisure
Talking about leisure, Duncan's baby brother IS BORN
So excited for the birth vlog but also I want the family to rest and embrace this moment
Okay hmx weekend ahead!
Am still considering if i'm going to do this timetable again next week, I might not but still

08.37am

Good morning!
I think I managed to fall asleep before 2am I can't tell but nice even though right now my eyes refuse to open I don't feel like going back to sleep
Can we believe today is chiqa's last day as a single digit aged baby I love her too much ♡
Okay here's to a beautiful kind and lively day ahead insyaallah!
Imma go get ready cause I heard mama cooking this morning huhu

01.45am

No idea why i'm doing this at the time im volatile but I officially have a full week ahead
Work in the day rehearsals at night
What is school but also hustle mode on
Am stoked for the week, but I need to rest la ok pls I want to sleep before 2am ok maybe 2.30

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03.53am

Good job
But also I went home to see spongebob and a really really rEally cute green bird plushie (i wished blogger on mobile still allows photo uploads ugh loser)
Apparently it's from angry bird it's a hatchling
It is so cute I had to sleep with it "sleep" lol lie down more like
Like it's too tiny fluffy and cute hahahaha great vocab
Sorry spongebob
Oh oh, the facial experience was goood
Actually today was just good alhamdulillah
Had fun filming for ele's assignment in sChoOl
Look at the effort she put in for one assignment (GOES TO NTU) versus like math hahahaha
Then we rushed to the appointment it was so nice I fell asleep and woke up multiple times cause she played some ambience music and there were water droplets sounds im like Im officially transported
Then rushed to rehearsal we are 4 and we sound good I love passionate people

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23.13pm

Kinda feeling the midweek tired, thanks to my forced human schedule
Not doing anything to my body clock though so I guess i'll just deal with it
Perhaps exhaustion will come and I will hibernate one shot idk what im saying brb

01.45am

Left home because I had an agenda of purchasing another one of a compact powder I got from my aunt cause I misplaced it and it is gOooOd
So with the conception that the brand is cheAp I floated to the store only to realise it's not drugstore at alllll omg it's mid range that's sold in a drugstore
Like she gave us 7 (?) shades of the liquid lipstick and I saw at the store it was 25$ PER PIECE wth
But I mean theyre good and not high high end so I might love it (the mascara is great too and is priced like other mascaras so about 20ish basically everything is 20ish)
Bought the 2 kinds of powders they had and went home and found the misplaced one so yay to extra powders ahahaha
Also unexpectedly full day tomorrow ye even though elephant is making me go to scHool in the morning the only reason I agreed is cause someone is driving us there if not NO CHANCE
Then the facial appointment that up till just now I was still tempted to not go but oh well just do it also I skipped masking this week for that so
Then an impromptu rehearsal with somemonix so yay that will be fun
Okay I shall rest (by rest I mean idk)
Heeh bye

ps i got sushi today finally and i am so happy sO happy

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03.43am

Ye I officially announce the return of nocturnal season where I fall alseep right as people's alarm ring which then wakes me up after 10 minutes of nap

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06.16am

Okay imma attempt to sleep now my alarm will ring in about 4 hours

01.50am

I was ready to fall asleep many hours ago but obviously it didnt happen
I have to remind myself on free days like these that I have academic work to do to make sure it doesnt interfere in my hmx agenda
Priorities lol

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03.43am

I CANT SLEEP i wanted to be fake human again and have an awake being self with zero afternoon tiredness but looks like it's not happening anytime soon
Also im quite excited for the facial tomorrow idk what to expect but also I already miss hmx ahahahahawhat

16.21pm

Unknowingly, I have trudged through everything this week well
I came out on the other side (I think im sick) feeling chiller than usual but also yes it's rare for me to be sick during non-champs/concert period (aka a month before my birthday lol this is a theory my body is getting ready to experience another year round the sun)
Didnt manage to do my test today but moving on, I just have one more thing on my academic to-do list for now before I hibernate tomorrow and go for a facial on sunday (it's my first time ive never been interested but mama is making us go so) (to think about it i'd rather go to the salon or a massage)
Also I found out im in the same class as somemonix why am I happy hahaha but also it feels weird to be in school on a friday except I have hmx around so it's ok
K bye

21.46am

What a trooper
Am on my way home relieved that I finally can have an off day tomorrow
Except I have a test?!? How rude
At least it's not in the morning

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22.22pm

Thursdays feel like fridays with my current timetae so imagine my shock everytime I remember I have school tomorrow
Also what a torturous ride home I am so not well rested

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22.59pm

I SURVIVED YESTERDAY AND TODAY (oh crap I frogot to complete my half done essay)
The test, the sleepless nights and then a full shift
Was sent to do activities today but thankfully thankfully thankfully 1) i had a new colleague to train so i wasnt alone 2) the kids suggested games themselves and everyone knew those games (octopus and farmer???) 3) in the afternoon i was supposed to bring 7-8 kids to the beach but most wanted to stay in so it was left with 3, then two were picked up by parents immediately and the last one couldn't tolerate the heat so back into the comfort zone it is
Closing went fine though I was alonenotreallyhahaha
Ok I am definitely falling asleep anytime soon
I wont set an alarm but I feel like I should just in case
When was the last time I went to school on a friday wth (also again, going to school without a hmx agenda is just weird) 

01.34am

I love how dedicated I can be to things I want to care about hahaha
I just KNOW everytime I go for rehearsal it is futile to bring my laptop or other work because my 1000% focus will be on rehearsal
Finished both songs' choreo today unexpectedly, we just got frustrated over our lack of improvement in sound so we just stood up to dance and wallah
Have an inhumane test in 8 hours time, I have 0 knowledge and currently still considering taking mc but like I want to get it over and done with which I probably will
I mean 2 marks is better than 0
(If this was pure philo I would have no worries at all my bullcrapping abilities can save the day)
But it's lOgic
So everione welcome to cry ironically over the paper with me while I attempt to read up on it and end up deciding resting is more important and then sleep
Okey buenas noches, have a lovely day ahead!

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10.51am

Nothing to say but Alhamdulillah
I survived the paper and needless to say I ran away from class
So now I just have to wait 7.5 hours until Hmx starts  and I have 1 essay to write so like do I brunch before humans swarm koufu, and then nap then do work or do I brunch and watch WWE I think all at once is good sleep while eating while watching things but also jing yong and I slept at like 5 plus because we couldnt stop laughing over idk what so nap might be in the agenda

01.02am

Feels like it's been some time since I do my bedtime routine just to start my day
Very unproductive today, ok I tried to read the slides but it is ughhh I was seriously considering dropping the mod I even subconsciously opened my outlook to email the course coordinator to reMovE mE but alas I decided to try again
Im not a persevering human unless I care enough (debatable) and this is lowkey math so obviously I dont care enough lol
But logic is cooler than math I just hate memorising and applying formulas ok bye
My definition of essay writing is lying down with my phone and typing 2k words on word and then using my laptop to add citations and upload to turnitin so right now im attempting to start writing and finish the essay hopefully the fact that the deadline is still 22 hours away is not deterring me from completing it pronto

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01.51am

About 20 minutes of writing and I got 1.1k words down lol you go girl
(But also perhaps I should read the readings to make sure im factual ahahah)

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09.51am

Hahah how am I up "on time" for class without an alarm I think I slept at like 5 plus
My first thought was "wow if I got ready and grabbed I will actually be IN class for the first time this semester"
Also people should stop telegramming me omg of course unless they ask to be ignored
But also after all this, i'm probably not going for class

04.11am

Oh I frogot to mention I didnt grab to eatgo's place that morning okay huhu

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14.39pm

Supposed to be productive (my body woke me up at 10am which is a good working time idk fake news but still) but it was dark outside cause raining so of course I wont do work
So I have two tests this week which is the most tests in a week i've ever had in my almost 4 years of uni life
And an essay due tomorrow night
I havent done assignments in so long hahahahahah this is gonna be funny
Ok bye

04.51am

Ohaiyooo
I definitely need more rest than this pls

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16.49pm

Still cant believe yesterday happened

It's the big day! (00.41am)

In 10 hours my dearest eatgo will be someone's wife
I can't sleep but I blame it on the nap I took earlier
But ok future me might hate me but right now im just- not even anything much on my brain except the food in the kitchen
But yes my heart is beating fast cause nerves
May everything go smoothly
Bismillah!

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05.49am

No idea how long it took for me to fall asleep
Wanted to give up a few times and play a video to lull me but I managed to sleep on my OwN wot m8

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22.55pm

Homed, tired, and assignment loaded but with a full heart
Entered gardens by the bay for the first time tonight and what better first time could I have than for eatgo's wedding photoshoot!
I really loved it in there though have to definitely go back and take my time exploring
Today went well, alhamdulillah
Tears were shed and laughters were shared
Nothing much has changed and I hope it continues this way
May you both last forever and be blessed with health, wealth and babies eheheh jk no pressure
Love you ms green tea D: ♡

15.53pm

On my way home and tired, grab was 5$ but I have managed to resist that temptation cause tomorrow morning confirm I grab to eatgo's place cmon (lowkey challenging myself to not but...)
Ran last minute bridesmaid errands with nellyol after eatgo left to prepare her side of things
Now I gotta go home and rEST

ALSO PTX COMING SG wth took them long enough

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23.11pm

About 11 hours 48 minutes left to the solemnization
We are not readyyyyy but im just gonna force myself to sleep now

05.23am

Ok past week my body clock has went back to the extreme again
Kinda wished it stayed mainstream a bit longer
I gave myself goosebumps singing today cAUSE haunted song but it was such a cool sensation I never thought I could give myself chills
Had a lovely day- ran errands with ms eatgo and then hmx
Ended up staying back for secret hitler after so long but they sUCK so i dont friend
Currently contemplating if I want to eat or sleep straight
Ok idk

03.41am

Did academic related stuff for the first time this semester
I love how we were groaning but when it was completed and we were going to do harmowork suddenly so enthusiastic and intense ahaha
Do things that make you happy eh
Jing yong and I are suffering from the same pains and cravings and google says it's pregnancy
But it's definitely a karma since we keep asking for other people to birth Hmx babies and we were reminded of how not easy pregnancy is HAHAHA jk we blame the activities we were forced to do yesterday
Ok gotta be up in 7ish hours

Merry october (06.48am)

4 days to eatgo's wedding

Also tell me why my body clock just completed 1 REM cycle and then is not allowing me to sleep again
Literally 2 hours of sleep and an epic dream I abruptly woke up from and has the least recollection about
Let me go back to sleep pls brain