Is it (00.34am)

Am I finally tired enough to fall asleep before 2am today I feel like it

I have a valid reason ok kinda (05.27am)

I should be sleeping or something
Work in 4 hours and then hmx heheh I love wednesday nights
Don't think I can work on Wednesdays besides today-
I'd reach rehearsal late which firstly is so not me (im always early on weds ok) and secondly i'll be missing dance cardio psht
But ok it feels like so long since I last worked what was it 2 weeks ago almost 3
Here's to a smooth day ahead, insyaallah!

ps i should powernap but i dont want to sleep how psht

This the season to be froggy (09.42am)

People around me and myself everytime im about to fall asleep: nein
Hahah jk but yes
Finally have a class this evening and I read last week's lecture slides and was like ??? excuse you this is not easing me in
Bismillah for this semester, i'll do well and complain less (not likely I probably WILL complain hahaha but the doing well part is yes insyaallah)
Okk I need to nap before class I will sleep man

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18.18pm

Is my laziness stronger than my need for food yes it is
2 more hours till end of class (aka wow times moves slow when it's jam packed) but i'm so happy to hear and see latin words
This is next level

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23.47pm

Oh my gosh cant a human get some sleep
I keep getting woken up the few times I actually manage to sleep at a human time
I'm just not meant to sleep early what the frog I just want to rest ok

Whoa (00.18am)

That was intense hahaha
I finally got to sit down and play lego for leisure
Though the switch takes time to get used to
Idk why I thought i'd be able to game all night but me being me hahahaha games hold a short attention span
I finished quite a bit though no idea how much more
Lepak day before a busy week
Oh wai I have to go to school psht
Ok fine

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01.19am

You know what would be the ultimate paradox I love it why did this thought JUST come to me now
I think I read people quite well
And people say i'm hard to read
What if I saw myself from an outside perspective
Which side of me wins the reader or the read hmm stay tuned we have to do in depth experiments and research ahahaha jk it is just so interesting what is this

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06.04am

Oh I didn't update you
I have like 2 classes now
But I need more??? Step up yo game bruh
Also this week marks the start of routine so I am not sure why I chose to not attempt to sleep and instead stay up like a fishmonger
Must get back my sleeping schedule by tonight ahahah WAIT I CANT BELIEVE I HAVENT SAID THIS BUT
Miraculously somehow Alhamdulillah I got into Latin??!!?!!?!?
Like I am screaming internally it's my first language module after like 9 years so I have no idea how i'll do (i.e whether i'll complain lol hopefully missing first two lessons is not that bad?)
I did try learning Latin by myself but there is a severe lack of reliable resources (to be fair it is a debatably dead language)
But yes it was unexpected but I got the results WHILE I was imagining myself in Latin class hahahahaha non nobis domini (k dont @ me those are choir lyrics)
I hope I won't complain to much
I also hope I get at least two philo modules
If not, summer school it is pfft
May all our affairs be eased insyaallah!

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14.34pm

I have a problem my heart is beating fast cause I realised Royal rumble is over and as someone who loves spoilers I am so excited to find out who wins but I also don't want to be disappointed ok let's go see (I saw the rey-dolph-orton-nia segment and wth that's what you get for attacking my reyrey)

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14.37pm

OK yup easy disappointment I knew it
Freakin seth rollins???? Excuse you this is offensive
Meh about Becky lynch, I need to see who else was in the rumble
The only redemption is returns and im counting on the women's one more so than the men's.
I sound ok but this is NOT okay ugh fricky babaz

Happier (04.47am)

Can you believe I just got home
To be fair I left home at 11pm
But yes this is the only good thing about growing a bit older YOU GET TO ROAM AT NIGHT
Also mama was with me so I was under adult supervision even though she joined ele and I in public nuisancing
Ok brb full shower session ahead

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21.39pm

Currently at vivo's timezone, they be closin soon but chiqa anga and along be redeeming prizes
Well earned ah we spent like 2 hours here
Also where in the frickfrack goat head can I find my laptop charger it is nonexistant
O well i'll just buy a new life then
Hahahah k drama
K bye

Not sure how to feel (03.55am)

Patience and a bit of wishful thinking could very well be the bridge to our prayers coming true, insyaallah
Time to indulge in some rest hahahah (idk what I typed im slepy)

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13.26pm

Less time for bullshit more time for happiness hello 2k19 hahahaha jk reinventing does not need to wait 365 days

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16.16pm

Very, very lazy day in I am not moving
I should find food before food finds me (?)
I just wanna chill and not reply to anyone even though I can
K bye heheh

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18.00pm

Oh ya last night I dreamt I was tired of eating maggi and woke up craving it instead
Backfiring huh

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21.32pm

Why must people wake me up the rare times im sleeping
But I woke up hearing Jep's voice on tv
Now mama is laughing like a baby panda I wonder what isit isit sepahtu reunion I think so

I have no time and energy to get troubled over little mishaps, if things don't work then move on together

Lovely day (02.15am)

Amidst my academic fiasco, Harmonix continues achieving milestones that are so significant to me and what we stand for
Today was great, Centerstage semi-finals and both teams made it to the finals
It's also our first time using our OWN microphones cry together leggo
Suppered afterwards and ended up on the last bus with 3 cats
I should stop eating 1 meal a day this is not self carrot all
Harmonix should learn to takecare of themselves as humans hahahahahah k
I thought i'd be free today but a meeting at school means no
Oh well, at least i'll be forced to be productive

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15.02pm

Again, what business does my heart have hurting for you?

How to treat others (02.26am)

Like we treat ourselves?
Like they don't matter?
Do we be kindest to them when they least deserve it, just as how we should do for ourselves?
When someone's actions hurt you especially if it's a friend, do we check if we are treating some other people in our lives the same way?
Is it wrong to give and not expect anything at all in return?
Definitely superarogatory
Not for a feel good moment, but for genuine heart and want to bring joy.
May we continue changing the world, one act of kindness at a time.
It's definitely a conscious choice and it is okay if we miss out sometimes.
Keep trying, ok?

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04.58am

I tried to sleep and here I am barely 1.5 hours later how why

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06.44am

Semblance of a socially applauded human behaviour
But it cool cause I feel well rested and I probably would want to nap in the afternoon but because i'll be surrounded with people I won't and then also I might either be tired or hyperawake at night and either way I would 80% not sleep early (17% possibility of crashing and 3% a repeat of today)
Ok I shall not mathcize my life and go do something ahuhuhu

Trend setted (06.57am)

Look at me proving my own point haha ha

Oh no (01.15am)

Oh no I missed yesterday
Currently eating snacks at whampoa cc with marko and daya the fish

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23.27pm

Straight chillin
Despite not having a schedule yet, I have been out and running almost everyday
Also my body clock is still sleep-at-6-am wake up when alarm rings so im not that well rested boo
I shall sleep well today and have a lovely day of newness ahead!
Bismillah to the littlest new things

How dare you (02.51am)

Just got home from a shop run with ele specifically to buy contact lens solution
$30 later and I reached home to realise IT WAS NOT CONTACT LENS SOLUTION freaking eye cleaner what mate hahahahahaha loser
To be fair it was the only solution-like thing they sold
No wonder it was expensive???
Frog juice im very rarely careless but firstly I was desperate okay the previous shop we went to had the same thing (aka no contact lens solution) and I guess also cause ele was spilling tea so I was more engrossed in it
Supposedly long day tomorrow but me being me refuse to acknowledge I have a job therefore I have no job
It was a fun day, half at home and the other half with hmx heheh
Went for the first ever Acafest gala night and I have people around me asking why Hmx wasn't called to perform
First of all stop being so sweet I will melt and secondly there's always a next time huhuhu
Ok here's to a beautiful day ahead, Insyaallah!

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05.29am

Can't sleep but more like don't feel the need to lol imma start arranging songs for champs

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16.55pm

Being in school on a Sunday (not to mention the lift im in has flickering lights and 300 reflections) is not cool
Also being dropped off by the family for the first time (?) makes me feel like it's my first day of school and moving into dorm hahaha im like yay excited but more so "dont leave meeeee"
Ok here's to making these little sacrifices (aka missing carnival night where is the fairness) worth it
Onwards HMX!

Naise (08.18am)

Experience is key, kinda
When I first saw the line up for MLM contestants this year I knew the top 5 placings and last night was exactly that
I'm very proud of them all, especially Shiro and Taman for being outstanding this season!
Taman stood a fighting chance against Puteh though, like they were the iffy 4th/5th for me but eh Puteh has more fans probably (hahaha look at me not being biased at all)
Ok why am I awake so early on a Saturday
Maybe cause I slept early last night
K good huhuhu free day today I hope I really don't feel like leaving home at least until later
Also it cold
Ok bye may we have a great day ahead!

Who knew (18.08pm)

Truly my only off day!
Surprised I didn't work today hahaha ok jk not really
Currently at geylang waiting for the mums to window shop
So tiring I just want to find my thing and leave but noOOOo I have to be dragged around im too shagged to move
Luckily rashposh and my new child friend are lazy too so we're just sitting doing nothing
Bleagh
It's so nice to have an empty mall
What are my plans for the next few days who knows

It's a cycle, harry (02.58am)

Read my posts this time last year and turns out it was the same thing- me not feeling like sleeping and proceeding to write short stories instead and then falling asleep at 6am
I knew I was consistant, not to this extent though huhuhu
Finally a free day today so i'm gonna work from home (ok I might have to roll down to school but eh no hmx no reason) and settle every. darn. thing.
Bismillah, may all our affairs be eased.

ps my aunt just texted the family chat the confirmed date of khali's wedding how is it possible to be so happy and offended at the same time I love her too much I have been ranting to my hmx how mad I am hahahahahaha hi Khali if you're reading this HOW WHY I dont want to wash plates pls that's cena and shawn's job

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03.14am

Wah rabak hahahaha I have been reminded (by my self last year again yes im continuing the blog reading) that I have a gig later ohmy goat I cannot believe I forgot
I was gonna be like "I have to go to school to settle some things but I have no other agenda (aka no hmx) so I dread too much and wouldnt" but turns out THAT is my main agenda hahahahah what the loch ness
This ALSO means that I have to reach school by 10.30am for soundcheck
Cats in a box are squealing
I should rest haahhahaha jk

My shine time (02.24am)

As non-english as my title sounds, it does have a link to what I wanted to say hahah
Like I know what I want to do which is to attempt to continue writing proper lengthed non-fiction and not like 7 paragraphs and done
Also to go to class I want to philosophy so badly why is my timetable not timetabling
Insyallah it'll all be settled by this day next week I promise not to take education for granted
And of course continue pushing my Hmx to their best potentials
They're already great I know that psht they deserve exposure
24 hours ago I was at a coffeeshop with daya crying over how much we love Hmx HAHAHAHA we are humans
Ok long afternoon ahead with the centerstage singing workshop and hmx but exciting cause first day of official rehearsals AND finally the juniors are meeting new seniors (mainly mark, zx, mau, and rico huhuhu)
Here's to a grand day ahead (especially since I have first half of the day free muahaha)

Also I feel better though my throat is not 100% great yet
I also realised I ate 1 meal yesterday
Not hungry though
YES AM I BACK TO THE LOW MAINTANENCE PHASE BECAUSE YES

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05.50am

WHY AM I AWAKE this is called self sabotaging jk I just didnt feel like sleeping also afternoon power naps ftw

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15.01pm

I think I found my ultimate bomb
It's when anyone or anything interrupts my wrestling time
Oh my frick I will throw you inside a pool of cactus with lava dont touch me
(cue me watching 'why professional wrestling is fascinating' with tears in my eyes and my hmx is SPAMMING my notifications via 7 million chats and instagram and I throw all of you at once)

Risk taking on a daily basis (05.31am)

How does one ever be sure of their decisions
They don't
We just take daily risks and either experience joy, learning or indifference.
In the end it's not much of a loss, is it?

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15.49pm

Life update: still crying over the song High school Musical

Lucky strike (00.38am)

Not sure how we got here again but hi, semester 2 of my 3rd year
I have no timetable yet so i'm still a floating platform but I have to go to school later for my own leisure ha ha ha jk it never leisure
Perhaps I should give my work schedule so I don't do nothing
But also I should rest
Not feeling better yet but at least i'm not freezing like last night huhuhu progress
Here's to a grand semester ahead, insyaallah!
In the meanwhile i'm gonna rerewatch the men's royal rumble hahaha k bye

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01.39am

Not used to this kind of love hahaha my hmx has been pming me to force me to take care of myself
You win some you lose some
Friendship based on reciprocity > generosity and compassion will die somehow
And as hard as I try to protect my flame from dying, it sucks to see you carelessly leaving yours in the open air.

I am impressed (07.48am)

I couldve promised I have been asleep for 6 hours at least but no it's not even 3 hours haha
And i've been awake the past half hour braining
Ok la it wasnt the most deep sleep but also at least my body got some rest
In other words, no idea how I got this fever from but I could feel myself burning up and im like "Eh this'll pass" but not yet hahah
Lowkey sometimes enjoy sleep without the fan but with jacket on it feels like i'm saving electricity and even though it's still chilly I know one more layer and i'll be in pain what does this mean idk dont ask me
Also my throat out of nowhere started to hurt too
Oh well, insyaallah i'll be ok soonest.
Rehearsal in 6 hours time!

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10.32am

Just finished watching the first ever women's royal rumble and I. Cannot. For the life of me believe i've ONLY just seen it what the actual horse hay I am rude to myself
It was everything I could've imagined and more!
Everyone was impressive, entrant 16 made me LOL and I felt better after seeing her enter hahahahaa Vickie why are you a frog I love it
That kind of endurance cannot be faked man, and it both makes me want and dont want to-
(Brb chiqa just walked into the room acting like a ghost heheahe so cute)
Ok yes both want and dont want to go back into the ring I will not elaborate further do not ask me questions please hahahah
The nostalgia made the rumble just that much better- as impressive as the actual physicalities are, it's the heart that makes it that great.
Ok I will not get emotional and go and rewatch the men's one (NOT SPOILER ALERT REYREY CAME BACK AND I DROPPED EVERYTHING FOR HIM)
Maybe thats why I didnt watch the women's one too ha ha ha sorreh

ps can you believe my title unknowingly suited both the edits today this is peak blogging

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14.36pm

Managed to sleep through the men's rumble, great lullaby hahaha jk I needed that extra hour
Also can you believe im too tired to laugh hahah I was shocked cause a family walked out of the lift and we were all laughing but I didnt even have the energy to haha properly hahah
Ok thankfully im not hungry yet cause appetite non existant

Why am I like this (23.31pm)

Currently embracing maggi goreng at jtine's place
My posts have been undisciplined lately

After some time (23.14pm)

Work went smoothly, making new friends everytime
Happy 40th birthday tokti, stay grand ♡

How did we end up here (23.53pm)

Cue daya and I currently squealing over doughnuts
I have work in 13 hours and I saw my manager earlier so no way out haha jk not like i'm going to run

Have I ever (02.42am)

This cyclical realisation that wow im so free and wow i have so much to do hahaha why do things come in waves but then again if they dont then free days are less existant
That being said I have a lot on my plate right now and i'll take it one at a time
I do not need additional background noises especially from authoritative figures who has done nothing but give more trouble
Stay out of my lane losers

Went to vivo for gift hunting and then surprised papa hehe ♡
But also loser anga and chiqa made a pitstop to timezone and spent half an hour there (they got a thousand tickets though wth is this sparta)
A somemonix day later, planned to go to school to settle school fees but i'm so lazy to travel but when else if not today sighs x2028

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18.45pm

Can I say finalfroggingly I am at a salon
Though it's just for a trim and blow but like finally
Also cause Belvico lowkey dragged me along she was like "I wanna cut my hair" and im like ok lets go
So now here we are, she's behind me getting her hurr straightened
Ok I shall go

Hehehe (00.35am)

Was about to say "Is it finally a chill day" but alas
I mean at least I don't have a main agenda
Happy blessed birthday to the best daddy in the universe I love you the most hehehehe ♡
Also welcome home Mark, it's beyond lovely to see and hear him in real life hahahah

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03.23am

Why am I awake whot mate

No sense of time (00.15am)

Just settled down, felt like some time since rehearsals were this productive hahaha
Here's to creating masterpieces
Ok best part was snacking AND ice cream
Yay

Merry day (04.05am)

NOOoO less than 6 hours to the end of camp I no friend
They're playing werewolf, im hungry but I have coffee hahaha
Also want to write the warm fuzzies and the first impression cards i'm excites
How did we move from secret hitler to werewolf hahaha we are a group of frogs except me

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22.55pm

The fams is watching dead silence, Hmx tried watching it 15 minutes before a gig on new year's eve hahaha
Also I like hibernation cause I feel even more low maintainence than usual like I need no food or drinks or toilet I do not have to move
But I also don't enjoy it much haha
Tempted to finally wake up, grab food and join the movie hehe I shall do that

Obviously already having withdrawal from hmx but im meeting somemonix in 16 hours for rehearsals hahah
Very thankful for the past 3 days.
Harmonix is crazy amazing, I dont know what we all did to find each other but I could not imagine life otherwise.
Alhamdulillah.

Talking about friendship, (hahahaha bad segway),
It's easy to find nice people but it's a daunting task finding people who actively wants the good for you.
Sometimes people whom I thought were friends would do stuff that I could never imagine doing to them and I get to thinking if we were even friends
But then again, noone owes anyone a living
If you are the lucky ones with soulmates as friends-
You're blessed, hold on and love harder.
(Not looking at dnp at all hahahahah)

Or so I thought (07.00am)

Highkey cannot believe i'm making hmx wake up at 8am
It's ok, camp training hahaha

How and why but also fine (06.43am)

I was supposed to hibernate before camp but how is this ok imma attempt to get 2 more hours of sleep

Comfort zone (04.40am)

In your face, fb quiz which said that my new year's resolution ought to be to sleep more hahaa
Literally first 2 days of 2018 (I meant to type 2019 but my fingers didnt cooperate) sleep is non-existant.
Potentially productive day ahead

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10.56am

I feel like I have pavloved myself into not being sleepy as soon as my head hits the pillows
Was SO sleepy the whole morning my eyes were half closed while eating breakfast so I was looking forward to go home
But yup here I am I WANT TO NAP why cant I

Happy 2019! (20.02pm)

Happy new year!
How many years since I daily blogged I have no idea.
Ended the year with harmonix- we parted ways at 10.15am pfft hahahah not doing weird things over macs breakfast at all
The gig was fun- it has been ages since I did an open field neighbourhood event but I remember clearly how hot it is on stage cause of fog machine and lights
And yesterday was a revision hahaha
But it was fun like I said

Alhamdulillah, 2018 has been unknowingly productive- a lot of firsts and a lot of experiences that I can only describe as eventful.
I could attempt to list my monthly achievements but I will probably have to edit this post 200 times but eh

January
Harmonix's first ever bonding camp; It was SO MUCH fun planning and carrying it out with Justine

February
Anjung adat II; the torturous journey led to a very worth-it feeling (at least after the first show) Also caused me to hurt my spine and not be able to be normal for almost 2 weeks hahaha.

March

April

May
Got a job?!; Still surprising how I am actually still working here but wow this is a thing hahaha (also I forgot about this)

June

July
Acachamps; Where RVN's love for each other just multiplied by many- though the actual event was very underwhelming, the journey towards champs and whatever nonsense we did afterwards cemented my love for harmonix.

August
Harmonix's first annual concert; needless to say, one of the main highlights of the year. I am very proud of us! Also turned 22 the day before it. Very blessed and I have a lot to do insyallah

Taking over Harmonix with my batchmates; Being trusted with the club as the first non-origins member is the hugest honour.

September

October

November

December