How is it new year's eve (06.54am)

A year anniversary since the night somemonix spent some time crying together- and it happened again hahahaha
Why are the best people plagued with most nonsense
But then again, god gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors.
I hope all of them find peace within themselves.
External support can do so much- they have to CHOOSE to accept their amazingness I love them all they are refried beans
Have to be in cck In 5 hours can I afford to sleep yes I can lets go power nap

Spilling teas (02.10am)

Ok just as im about to vlog about how we're still sharing stories over coffee, they decide to move so brb
Also los rana gusanos should sleep why r they awake but also I miss them hahaha

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03.15am

Ok finally settled down
Year end sales are a great thing- I dislike shopping generally (ok more like indifferent hahah like I lOVE gift shopping but i've never like Omg I need to go shop) but the sales are making me happy for no reason hahaha
Bought the pixi toner and it is glowing me likey
Ok I shall rest
I have consumed like 1 sip of water hah
Rehearsal in 12 hours time ay

And yes- Happy blessed birthday to the best mamemo in the universe hani rose the panda baby I love you like a frog loves frogging

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3.28am

Not so random thought maybe my stage name should be You so when anyone confesses to their crushes and gets rejected they can use me as a swerve
"You pfft not you YOU I meant the cool human you- don't be ridic"
Ok bye

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03.34am

Ok just kidding about the bye let me just talk about how blessed ive been
This afternoon while getting ready I was like where are all my eyeshadow palattes why do I only have 5 at my disposal
Lo and behold I come back with 2 more
Thanks my ASB people hahahah wished I could watch the eclair session

No not meee (00.18am)

So I started and ended my day in the kids club today witnessing 2 people with fever and now my temperature is rising like I could feel myself getting hotter literally this is not a joke and this is unnecessary hehahe

Time management hahah (05.06am)

I should nap before work
Work in 7 hours time but at least im home hahaha

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23.34pm

Had rehearsal and camp prepping yesterday, ended up staying till 3am lol it has been some time
But we got like 80% doneee which im relieved about
Just logistics and bootcamp left to brainstorm
Work was bearable, I feel out of self like im the child I cant take care of another child
But there were a lot of cute loving kids today hahahahu
Ok mama's birthday in 24 mins hehehe and mak ngah/nikki's birthday today- happy birthday my queens and princess zombie I love all of you ♡♡♡

Going gift shopping tomorrow before visiting ASB and then family outing for mama's birthday hehehu

Coolios (16.35pm)

Some people focus on the unnecessary it's mildly intriguing like does your brain really but ok if everyone focuses on the same thing there will be a lot of overlooked things so ok every weakness is a strength somehow also why is this sentence so long this is not what I was gonna blog about
I have somehow conjured the power to control my dreamflow like not lucid but I could pause and play the dreams to react to real life situation and then resume to continue the dream
It was weird though like every single time before the dream resumes I hear chantings and I have to ride a form of transportation (bicycles and scooters) in my dreams like as if to literally kickstart the story
The chants started scary but my semi-conscious self realises I need to go through it to enter back the dream realm
Sounds weird but I did it like 5 times throughout my sleep and I even went back to sleep to try and experience it again hahaha
Dreams are so weird, I love it.
And I guess the theory that dreaming is your brain's way of recollecting your thoughts is true
Like most of the things I think about will appear in my dreams.
But like is said, this is sometimes.
Other times the most randomest crabmeats still appear- like a human I forgot existed until I see them in my dreams
Once I fell asleep after looking at a gingerbreadman pillow and it appeared in my dream that night
Why am I talking about dreams I should get ready now I so lazy to moveee

Bad decisions (07.00am)

Er.ma.gerd I am a frog
I am currently at jstine's place with somemonix somehow ended up having breakfast together lol I have work in 5 hours and it's till 9pm am I gonna survive
First of all what's new but also like it feels like so long since i've done this
Daya is murmuring nonsense I love it she is drunk with lack of sleep

Merry xmas (01.34am)

Again, holiday joy is great but my schedule gets real tight im like having fun while lack of rest
But alas none of the tiredness matters once im home im awake like a fishball
Gotta be back at clarke quay in less than 9 hours for 2 more screaming sessions

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06.18am

And today my body clock woke me up at 5.50am thanksies

Bluek (01.17am)

Peasants is when I make a WWE reference and the people I say it to dont get it hahahahahah

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20.07pm

Me tired my voice es not health but I can't help it when people stop to listen to us I feel the need to scream more and thus not healthening my vocal cords
Tired but... it's xmas eve and I love the holiday season everyone is in a good lively mood me love it
I want to go homeeee but too shagged to move hahahah too much man (to be fair I woke up early but cmon man it's only 8pm THE NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG SO ARE WE)
My existance refuses to do anything hmx keeps eating im tired of eating when im not hungry hahahais takpelah rezeki but still

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20.53pm

Have I told you I always get sad at the thought of undertaker retiring
I will sell my friends if he unwarningly gets inducted into HOF because I want to cry live
Also por favor please warn me like 7 months before I need to prepare my heart and soul
Oh wait the phenom doesnt never retires ever
Teletubbies will retire before him

A break is a break (01.03am)

Thought i'd be hibernating today but I still got a break even though I was complaining hahaha
My legs hurt like I just finished wrestling class but trust me yesterday was far from wrestling class
Ok let me settle down

Ayy lol (01.24am)

Dang it was gonna type 1.23 but the time changed hahah
Quite tired weirdly (ok not so weird seeing my resting schedule)
Managed to be quite productive today, doing lame adult banking stuff to auditioning a group of future starbabies to planning for camp
Another long day tomorrow but hopefully it brings joy heheh

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06.21am

Body clock has been muy consistente this past week hahaha
Which is why I feel tired faster at night
Oh wells i'll nap in the noon

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08.14am

Oh the rare times I become the wake up call ok not that rare but mymonix usually wake up without assistance
Shall I head to clark quay or not
Perhaps yes

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23.38pm

Still in school, exhausted physically which is lame but understandable cause what is up with me being normal
Spent the past few days trying to rest my throat and voice but it all goes down the drain today (not that it was fully recovered) after screaming for a gig Val banned me from singing
I was the earliest for the gig i'm not involved in hahahah pride
Also I learnt that including my rolling in bed procrastinating time, 4 hours before an event is the ideal time for me to start waking up heheh
Ok interviewing now

What am I doing to me (03.53am)

The title is a reference to the video im processing right now
Aka jertan trying to get his lyrics for 10 mins straight
I cannot even handle hahaha
To be fair I had not the easiest time internalizing the lyrics
But honestly it's just cause the lyrics are gramatically disgusting and makes not much common sense
Also I should be sleeping
Meeting some of my exco members heheh informally before champs audition in 8 hours time
Honestly dk what to look out for but I trust guts
Bismillah

WeIrD (16.05pm)

Why is formalities so unnecessary
Emails are the worst
Why must I sign off EVERYTIME u KNOW who youre talking to (SURPRISE IT ME IT'S SENT FROM MY EMAIL)
And we have the whole
Dear loser,
And you unnecessarily have to THINK about how to address them (dont get me started on unisex names like are you a Ms or Mr wHAT)
And why is it that married and single women have different titles but men have ONE noone can get it wrong
This is unnecessary let me just insta dm you
Oh well, at least email doesnt tell you when their mail is read ha ha ha

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17.11pm

My body clock woke me up at like 6am today
No idea what time I slept
My only hibernation day for the month haha thank god for rain it's making me feel better for staying home

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19.44pm

I knew colleen was pregnant BEFORE hmx's concert?!?!?!
Totally do not feel like it
Finally watched her gender reveal video which I avoided cause I hate suspense and now the baby is safely delivered I can go watch hahah

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21.51pm

Feeling very productive right now
I knew once I switched on the laptop i'll be on a roll and overworking aka doing 7 things at once it may seem counter productive but it's how I get many things done at once I am just a born multitasker
Editing video + Proposal + Camp planning + Poster making + Subcomm recruiting + Future present and past projects lets do this
Also where is my half cup of coffee I want
I should just go get it

A chiller week hopefully (17.03pm)

Not literally I love the sunshine
But yes currently somehow at work hahah
Thought today would be hibernation day but not happening
Ironically tomorrow imalwaysbusyonwednesdays is my only free day so far

What is the worth (01.40am)

Feels so lovely to be makeup free but my hair still has hairspray imma need to visit the salon for this because I have no strength left in me to shampoo multiple times
I realise I haven't gotten to spend time with my babies nephews nieces and cousins
Aghh talking about babies just now before we danced a cute babyboy was asked by his mum to take a photo with us and I held out my hand to show him where to stand but HE HELD MY HAND omy I can still feel the tiny baby hands grasping me until the mum was done taking photos
I am physically done so I will either wake up from this sleep fully sick or healed or still the same or hahahaha im hoping for the best
Tis the season to be jolly
My voice is feeling the burn from screaming soprano notes hahaha mr bean in a seashell
Didnt even get to finish my dinner
Hais ok I should sleep
Will probably reply emails and messages tomorrow
I havent updated my calendar this week cause I dread to see how filled it will be
I survived the past week great-
Nothing is new!

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15.34pm

Why am I emotional over my own writing hahahah this is high key self love
Also I feel better but my voice hahaha on the brink of adjusting and fighting through its lackof
At least nothing is hurting
Meeting the music comm later
Complained to my fam that I didnt get to see Barney like THE DAY I finally have time to spare, HE'S GONE
And there were mixed reactions
Mama: If Barney could hear you now he will say "It's your fault for not coming to see me"
Chiqa: Immediately plays Barney videos on youtube
So mad right now hahahahaha but yes this is an insatiable desire for now.
Please come back soon I will be there.

A few of my favourite things (01.41am)

Other than beaches and ice cream and cake,
Family time is the best
Especially when Stylo is involved yall troublemakers I love it
We were playing makeup-half-the-face up till midnight when I realised I am lamely obliged to go home for morning duty
But insyallah keeping my head high, just a few hours to tank then I can go back to the comfort of hmx
Happy 21st birthday Cena, i'm sure I have been there your whole life and I will continue doing so because we are the ultimate tag team hehehehe

I'm gonna be annoyed at myself (02.57am)

I keep putting off blogging events that I might forget what I did
Bleagh
Need a day to just sit down and... edit all posts.
I had a lovely day, not as tired as yesterday/the past 2 days
Went for a random gig at an xmas party, lovely crowd hahah
Then dinner at 2 places with somemonix before homeee

Tomorrow noon with hmx, then a wedding of one of my jentera baiduri's mate before going back to hmx for caroling
Supposed to be dancing but no updates means no rehearsal ha ha ha
Ok I wanna restish
Adeu

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03.14am

As expected as soon as my head hits the pillow all tiredness goes away isnt this the opposite of settling down hahaha
But I am like so ready to watch colleen's birth video BUT I dont feel like crying and I am 101029% sure I will cry ugh lets just do it now

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09.05am

Did I ever mention new me is a frogmeat yes I have why must I FEEL responsible eww
I had my day planned properly and I just had to be greeted with extra task which is so inconvenient and I owe them nothing and it is very unnecessary I should just say Nah mate and NOT
But eh.
I guess I could spare a few peasant minutes

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18.56pm

3/4 to do things completed for the day and I am quite tired
Not a good feeling this festive season but hey hustling but not overworking ah idk what im doing anymore
Supposed to go to grammy's place but I am quite ready to crash
Would be very nice to be with stylo though
Ok yup khali just texted this is fate hehehe
Tomorrow's calltime is freaking 8.30am and I have a gig at night too hehehehahhehehehahehehehahhehehehahehehe

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21.43pm

Highkey mentally and physically tyred, but we're playing with makeup hahahah
I know cena wont read this now so im just gonna say here that WE HAVE CAKE IN THE FRIDGE HEHEHE
Also im torn between staying till midnight to cut cake and going to hibernate for tomorrow
Eh who am I kidding self care who
K bye

Who knew (00.59am)

I realised what it is
I'm tired but not tired enough you get me
Like if i'm exhausted I can be like "Ah I need to hibernate im exhausted"
But now im like I still can do things
So in this weird state of tired but still excited to do things, I embrace the upcoming few days of performances, rehearsals and reunions

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03.32am

Is this a joke am I issuing a challenge to myself because what the heck I should be sleeping of all things
StAP

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19.21pm

Your issues are not mine
But it is.
Pftfahsiwmshoznzvxz

Que pasa (03.35am)

Didn't plan to stay out this late
Walked into rehearsal to someone asking if im sick and that I looked tired
I dont particularly feel sick but definitely not the best but eh i'll survive
I probably need a temporarily better lifestyle to replace my cells and reenergize myself
Had a lovely day, but yes I am quite shagged in my brain. (Or around)
Insyallah all will be well!

So much to life (03.26am)

We are young.
We should have fire in us, relentlessly shoving disbelievers away
We will get somewhere and we will find success in our own terms

Gotta be in school in 8 hours for christmas crash course and then a gig in the evening
Looking forward!
Also had a lovely day with halfmosaic they are so weird and talented we are 3 generations of amazingness

Where have I been (20.21pm)

I had a great weekend!
Also very tiring on Sunday morning I couldnt produce much noises like I was perfectly in tune in my head but my voice felt so tired it was painful to speak
But harfreakinmonix always always pulls through
I love them like loser frogs
Today was supposed to be a semi-productive day but hey it's ok to lepak I have been exhausted.
Already looking forward to more rehearsals hehahe.
Tomorrow it starts?

Obviously occupied day (05.31am)

Spent 18 hours with the voices team today, from costume shopping to rehearsals and walking from City hall to Lavender hahaha
Very very proud of how far we've come
Every new group takes time to love but once you hit it, it's a yassss through and through
Felt quite emotional after the last full run because I felt every one of them trying their best ahhhh

Also omg USS later I should be asleep
I cant scream on rides much hahah unless my throat warms back down before later
Okey imma nap hehe

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15.33pm

Currently in line for Jurassic world and im trying so hard not to talk but it's so hard
My throat needs rest I literally took 1 ride and scrum (hah) and my throat just bam hurt
On the 2nd coaster I realised I didnt have to scream but I still had to squeal and convey chiqa to open her eyes
All in all I will need to consume honey lemon drink x5 a day
Insyallah we'll all be at optimal, calm condition by when tomorrow comes around

Ahh after some time (03.43am)

Havent been awake at this time for the past 2 nights so my currently normal body clock is telling me my eyes are tired
Buenas noches, i'll try to sleep
Have to head to the airport in the morning and then a fullmonix day of torture

Oh hm (01.36am)

Why is it that the day i'd need the most rest is the day my body refuses to rest
Whatever im here to say that priyanka chopra's wedding veil is 75 foot long (I have no idea how long that is but it IS long from the video footage) and I love this level of extreme my bridal train will be as long as hogwarts express

Aliens. Also, I need a boost (02.23am)

So I was too sleepy to continue my essay so I set my alarm for a 1.5 hour nap but here we are almost 4 hours later haha
Hoping to complete it before 6am and then sleep and not go to work early cause estoy muy cansado
Also, happy birthday to my (now married T.T) pink alien and brother! ♡

ps troye is touring and coming to singapore i am very excited yet weirded out cause freaking cuteboi on youtube is now a world famous singer i am so proud he has made it and i definitely would go see the little bean

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10.45am

I. Did. It!!!
I feel so free after every essay hahaha I enjoyed writing it though, reaching from 1k to 3k words felt tortorous but after the 3k mark words were flowing out like tapwater thanks brain.
Also asked to go to work later.
I just have 1 more essay to do and I dont even know if it's too late to submit but imma try my luck hah I dont need no burden.
OK here's to an amazing week ahead!
Also voices in 5 days but we are barely done with our songs hahahahaha hashtag trust 

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22.52pm

Alhamdulillah today went smoothly, although my manager has been asking if I was tired since yesterday haha
She said I looked very tired but ironically both days I had human amount of sleep
Another long day tomorrow but it's hmx
Concert venue viewing actually, I am stoked!

Random thought (19.07pm)

Totally typed am in the title hahaha too used to it
Got to nap a little before waking up for work and wouldve made it on time if not for the slowest taxi driver on earth but hey at least we arrived safely haha ha
Also the kids club was empty when I arrived, only a piece of seaweed was there
(That is a human btw)
Got an email from my prof asking if im gonna submit my essay hahaha ha ha yes sure looks like I have the next 4 hours ahead to do it I cannot with reverse psychology with niceness
Work was the most peaceful I felt after so long but ironically it was quite busy.
Also have been listening to new humans and I realised how much I missed my demdems so im on a demibinge hehe
Hopefully i'll reach home before/at 7.30pm I either need a power nap or food there is no nego

Also (wow I said like 22927 alsos in this post) randomly thought of how it's vlogmas season!
I always love vlogmas videos hahaha
Ok dizzy bye, may you have an amazing day ahead anytime your eyes land on this sentence!

Buenos dias! (13.21pm)

It's not even morning hahaha but I woke up at 7
See, my existance is entirely capable of normal sleep schedule
I slept right as I got home at like 10.30pm
I should be getting ready now omg must be at the studio in an hour
Also wot mate the items has been cut to one i've learnt before :')
I feel so well rested and cared for by the universe- hmx rehearsal was also called off today BUT I will still meet them later at the beach
Ok I shall get a headstart on my day
Wish me luck (pfft i dont need luck i have skills)
But good vibes goes a long way so

Merry December! (01.33am)

December looked weird I was thinking Dancember hahaha
I dont feel like sleeping but that wouldnt be a wise choice seeing the week(end) ahead of me hehehe
Excited but we'll take it one step at a time.
Still havent finished my essays hahahaha at least I read half of Analects AND Philosopher's stone
Long hmx day ahead, may it all be amazing

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03.28am

Trying to get on top of my vlogging game
So much footage nonexistant editing
Hahahaha

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22.40pm

Home after a long day and sleepless night
Thought of doing my essay but I wanna rest
Another day of rehearsals tomorrow and hopefully i'll be able to join the hmx outing