Right parts, wrong people

Hello
I've always seen this quote: "I have given the right parts of me to the wrong people" and thought it was a bit pointless.
Like it should be up to you to still have (or revive, whatever) all your "good parts".
But then I read my old blogs and realise a lot of the things I had done for my friends are things i'd never even think about now.
I even wonder if i'd do the same in those situations if it were the current me in those spots instead.
Kinda resonates with me, that quote.
Maybe it's the parts you never even knew you had until you lost it.
And you didn't even know you lost it until the past is revisited.

Sudden mood to clean so I shall do it (actually was cleaning while reading old blogs)
Sigh virgoans (hahahaha no link)
Adeu.

ps is this (image below) the longest way to say "I dont know" or what? XD

Yay

Hello!
Omg remember my obsession with First love of a royal prince?
I always listen to the songs and there'd be the native lyrics and then spanish translation which pffft obviously I don't understand both.
(But i'll sing the spanish lyrics because it is more pronouncable)
(Wow)
I just found the video again and hahahahahahahahah YES I understand everything now hahahah
Now let me listen to the whole song and decipher the meaning
Feels cooooool
Adeu ^^

"The big zero" -Zeke

Hello!
Great morning~
Woke up to an array of heartwarming and super sweet messages.
Am I touched or am I touched?
Hahhahais.
Who would I be without all these people by my side huh
(More cooler obviously hahahaa kidds)

Anyway my family is bad at surprises because 

1) Chiqa: she told me they bought me presents like a day before
2) Kak sham, mama & along: such bad actors hahahah one trying to distract me by suddenly asking me to watch stupid videos, one suddenly call me out to feed me durian, one pretending to call his fiancee to go out and eat.
3) Kak sham (again): 4 mins before midnight I could hear her say "3 MORE MINUTES" hahahaha it was loud ok
4) Anga: I heard the lighter while I was still in the room pls

Being 20 is so weird.
I don't remember being 15, 16, 17, 18, I don't remember what changed.
Of course I wouldn't change a thing (okay maybe the selfish part of me wants to change a few things but I trust in Allah's plans so much, I wouldn't)
But if I were given a chance, I would really love to meet myself as a kid.
How would she react to me, what would she think of me.
She probably wouldn't adore me so much.

I survived the crazy dramas that (sadly... or not) shaped who I am today.
Somehow I feel like I would be a much better person if I hadn't had gone through the crazy things especially at school.
But will I really?
These things are what toughened me up, made me more empathatic and compassionate, and taught me values that only experience could have taught.

I still find it hard to accept that i'm not a kid anymore? And I don't think i'll ever accept that.
I guess I have no worries because that kid will always be a part of me.
I am still me despite all.
And that, is something i'll never ever let go.
Adeu.

Midnight joys

Got a kendama for my birthday...... hahahahahhahahaha
And then I got an onion, a potato and a bottle of black pepper :')
IN A PINK BASKET (which wouldve been so useful for me but SOMEONE bought it in pink so not gonna use it not even gonna LOOK at it hahahaha drama)
Anyway had a great night playing pie face, getting recorded by paparazzis, not knowing what to wish for (I dont even remember what I wished for), and Uno.
Thank ye mi familia, realmente mucho amores (nonsense spanish alert)
Love love love all of you 💜💜😚
(Does emoticons appear on blogger I don't think so but it is 2 purple hearts and one kissy face muehehe)

19 no more?

Hello!
Less than 15 minutes before I turn the big 2 0
Crazy thought
Crazy crazy crazy

Very crazy.

And so far I have been declaring my own holidays on my birthday.
This year the universe declares it for me.
Hahaha amaizing
Adeu ^^

Dark side of my moon

Hello!
Had a super lepak Thursday despite a... week.
School has been going well so far.
Currently in a showdown in deciding what CCA to join.

20th Aug

Currently telling ghost stories with Iqim, Aqil and Chiqa.
They're so cute and enthusiastic but it's weird how most of my stories occured when even the thought of them (the audience) had not existed yet hahaha
Kiddos yall too entertaining!

Spent the night layaning the kids with ghost stories lolol it's the only way to occupy them and make sure they're quiet!
Sleptover kak yati's place for 2 nights.
It was a real workout entertaining the kids but I enjoyed every second!

Happy 24th my demdemsss!

21st Aug

It's... sad (for the lack of better term) to see someone whom you know is a good person doing things that are life ruining.
I'm torn in between trusting them enough to continue on their "learning journey" and stepping in to pull them out of the wreck.
It's a crazy decision with possible ripple repercussions, where friendships could be cut off.

I mean I have been in a lot of these predicaments but I have always dived into it and taken the risks but sometimes it's harder 

But I know ultimately, it was never and will never be my decision to make.

Anyway seriously may Allah easen the affairs of those who eases others' affairs.
I'm here scrolling through my readings and feeling so thankful for my classmates (though I may not know their names.... or how they look like hahahaha i'll learn you eventually)
(What a weird sentence but do I look like I care hahahah no)

What am I doing, bullet blogging? Hahahaha
Ok gotta get back on track.
A long Monday ahead!
Have an amazing week and may the good in you always be fed and fat.
Adeu ^^

ps socrates you sassy loser

pps this whole post right... my English something wrong

pps 4 more days to turning 20..... no comment

Feeling friday

Hello!
Though it is raining heavily outside, I am actually in a bright mood hahha.
Firstly, i'm so happy that my insta timeline is flooded with Jozan because I have missed them so much!
Them being together is just magic and I hope- no, make that EXPECT, to see more of them

Secondly, I am extremely proud of our Singapore representatives in the Olympics, literally just being there is a great achievement, what more to be in the semis and even finals.
And this freaking Joseph schooling doing such an impressive job, I can't even put into words how elated and excited I am for someone I don't even know.
If escaping sports is a sport, I would be world champion but so far noone is creative enough to create that category.
(Actually right i'm exaggerating ah I always play sports hahahahaha why do people associate me with not liking sports just because I skip PE and NAPFA)
(I just dont like being forced to run hashtag I have limited amount of free will and I shall use it)
Ok what am I blabbering about.

Actually thought of going to NUS today for some choir competition but this weather is saying nO so I shall go with the flow (lol pun unintended but i'll accept that)
Anyway I have quite a number of readings to catch up on especially for Intro hahahahaha
Reading via screens is just not... satisfying but printing them would be a waste HOWWWWW.
Ok la technology is so advanced now AND I have hands to write so I shall do it anyways.
(Sounds like there's no link but really there is)

Ok have a great weekend ahead!
Takecare and have funnnn
Adeu ^^

Big RAD machine

Hello!
Am currently watching random rumble matches and have a sudden realisation of exactly how much I love Kane.
Literally he was the only other person besides Cena that I was so excited to see live (BIG SHOW AND Y2J DIDNT COME PFFFT)
When his music hit it felt so weird like craaazy goosebumps and all my nightmares since young balled into one giant dream come true
Hahahaha that made no sense but so much sense
So yes world, I do love Kane regardless of whether he was the big red machine or a joke beside dbryan or corporate or the demon who tombstoned a priest and set humans on fire, I have always been with him.
Here's to a great journey ahead, mi hermano.

Hahahahaha random appreciation post for a guy who I realise is actually really well loved!
I wished I captured his entrance during WWE SG just to see the crowd reaction because for this match im watching he got a pretty huge welcome!
(Actually wait im veryyyyy sure I have a video somewhere)

Anyway school has been good so far!
2nd day of school today and spent the whole lesson sitting on the floor ahahais at least the professor was good!
Dinnered at KFC with yol despite my first day of clean eating week -_-
Restart tomorrow what to do hahahahahh.
Hard to find healthy halal food (hahhaha excuses)

I have no school tomorrow but will probably still go for the CCA fair and stuff~
Why is NTU so far why did I reject hall :')
But ok everything happens for a reason la huh hahaha no regrets.

First day of school felt cool; went with yollie who bought me breakfast ermagerd since when is she nice xD
I arrived at like 9:29:56 sweeeeee.
The professor was so awkward it's cute hahahah but idk whether to feel awkward with him or not.
After school went for lunch at NIE and then papa picked us up yayyyy!

National day was spent karaokeing but I didn't wear red hahaha the ONE DAY i'm supposed to do it, I didn't.
Tsk3.
It felt very uneventful especially after 4 years of being involved in the parade and even 3 years prior performing for school celebrations but this year was so lepak.
Still, feliz cumpleaños, negaraku!

Ok I need to continue watching this match and my battery is dying and I have to wake up early tomorrow what is this.
Adeu ^^

ps yol wearing the dress she stubbornly (freaking tauruses) rounded h&m for 5 TIMES

START OF SOMETHING NEW

Hello!
A few more hours and it's officially the start of school.
I'm good and packed and have set my alarm but i'm missing one crucial thing; sleepiness.
Where art thou cometh to me (omg shakespeare would be so mad)

Anyway just would like to thank the people who made this transition a lot easier, namely yol, nelly, my boogeygirls (who are just as lost as me hahaha) and the seniors during orientation!
If I did anything right it's all thanks to them ehehe.
May I find it in me to pass on their goodwill Amin!

Went johor with yol to shop and eat and we were dead beat by the end (we told ghost stories to distract ourselves from the traffic jam, kinda worked)
Gonna be wearing the same top with her tomorrow hahahaha hais reputation will be gone like the wind jk who cares!

Spent the weekend having a family gathering at aunty Mas' place where although I was feeling a little under the weather, the great food made up for it.
And together with ika, we headed to Maleena's house which was opposite mine hahaha I think we reached a lil after 9pm.
Ate and watched hannah montana the movie and then after being impressed by ika who said "hannah's a part of you don't let her go!" with lilly, she bragged that the movie we could recite word for word is HSM and so Maleena played HSM2.
I thought that was the best part of the night but NOoOOOoO we continued with HSM3!!!!!
Sang and dance and ate some more!
What a way to mark the end of holidays and the start of something new (eehehhee)
Though we ended a bit after 2am, I felt so hyped and funny thing is, upon reaching home, I discovered Elephant watching HSM on the computer homagash so I continued the HSM marathon before I fell asleep because zzzzz shagged.

Anywhoots tomorrow is an early day (not really NTU is just really far)
(to be fair it's not that far from my place so no complaints)
So I should (try very hard to) sleep early!
(Early being before 2am)

And note to self,
Let this beginning start out right.
It's all up to moi and if I set my mind to it, I can sooo do it.
Have a blast for the next 4 years and eliminate fear from your dictionary (not like it was ever there cehhh hahaha)
Here's to an adventure ahead!

Do have an amazing week, and take care!
Adeu ^^

ps love pokemon but am not playing pokego and will not disturb those who does because why would I

pps just realised I didnt blog about orientation and that is WRONG! will do it soon 

Toying with emotions

Uhh now that they are in the same brand, can this broskiness happen more often please!
Such preciousness

Let the games begin!

Hello!
Currently stuck in bad traffic ahaha
It is raining heavily here and thus I am kinda drenched but issokay it's the risk i'm willing to take hahahahah rather than bringing a small umbrella
Is this the mark of not adulthood yet or is this just me being practical?
Noone shall know hahaha.
Anyway it is totally not weird for me to wear shades in the rain because it serves the purpose of protecting my eye makeup!
Once upon a time I thought I was wearing waterproof eyeliner but it disappeared completely like not even streaks or a single trace of its existance so lesson learnt; don't trust waterproof eyeliners (mascaras are okay usually)
Okay my battery is 27% and I have a looooong day ahead!
Have fun and take care, if anyone is reading this!
Adeu ^^