feels like forever

HEY!
I missed you!
hehehahha it really felt like forever.
But it's only like what, a week?
Bahaha.
Exam period now......zzzzzzzzz
done with two papers!
five more to go and those are the crazy ones.
Maths on tuesday, followed by 2 history and 2 literature paper.
Oh, not to mention that maths paper is 3 HOURS LONG.
D:
whatevs!

NDP appreciation hi tea cum movie screening tonight with syuh.
honestly i was surprised after getting the invitation (you know considering the fact that we didn't go to half of the practices and the actual day)
but we didn't get the allowance.
yet, i hope.
ugh i deserve it ok i spent like a lot of my weekends there.
xD
meh, whatevs.

i've been on a journey and i realised that friends come in many forms.
some are true, some uses you, some chooses you temporarily.
but you know what, each and every one of them impacted my life and made me smile once upon a time.
So it's real unfair to blame them for ditching you now.
Whatevs.

Ok, a few things to be excited about!
1) DEMI IN GLEE.
CAN I EVEN STRESS ON THIS.
I WATCHED THE PROMO AND SQUEALED LIKE A TURTLE.

2) DEMI'S NEW SINGLE: NEON LIGHTS.
THIS SONG IS IN ONE OF MY TOP 10 MOST PLAYED IN MY PHONE.
AND THEY CHOSE TO RELEASE THIS AS A SINGLE
CAN I GET A WHUT WHUT!?
(YES I CAN)

3) DANIEL BRYAN IS ENGAGED.
ONE WORD: HAHAHAHAHA
I MEAN, YES. YES. YES.

4) SCHOOL ENDING SOON.
THIS MEANS PARTEH
KBYE

adeu

Too soon

I know, this topic is still raw.
It's too soon to even mention it.

A lot of people lost a dear friend, when he passed on yesterday.
He was my primary school classmate, who i believe had been strong enough to not only battle cancer for years, but also to keep positive amidst all the pain.
Only him and god knows what he really feels inside, but the fact that he still kept the smile on his face is just amazing.
Last year, one of our primary school classmate passed too, at the tender age of sixteen, due to heart failure.
Both guys were people who impacted us one way or another.
I had seen both guys in class, making everyone laugh with their joy and enthusiasm.
I understand how tough these news are to deal with.

When i first heard the news last afternoon, I was stuck in a traffic jam on the way home from school.
I was silently grunting about how the traffic was moving so slowly, when I got a text.
The first thing I did was to take a deep breath.
And then i brought my hand to my chest, and feel the steady heartbeat.
Huh.
Can you ever, ever imagine, not being able to do that anymore?
Can you ever imagine, not being able to see, to hear and touch, to feel?
Because I can't.
And i doubt anyone ever can.
I mean, it all seems too far fetched, doesn't it?

But these events, these events are just reminders of how short life can be.
How everything can be taken away from you in a flash.
Both my friends...-
I don't even know where to start.

You know how tough it is, to even think about death?
Especially when one passes at a young age?
They barely managed to enjoy their teen lives.
Their dreams, their hopes and aspirations,-
remains that; a fantasy.
Whatever we've been dwelling about all day and night, whether it be wondering if we can even enter into a university, or when you will meet your future spouse, will never come for them.
They don't get to name a future child.
They didn't get to travel the world.
They didn't get to do all the things that they ever wanted.

But let me tell you something.
When you're in their shoes, the only thing you will ever want is to live another day.
To be able to wake up and see the people you love for one more day.
To be able to breathe the air.
To feel something.
Pain, whatever.
Atleast they're signs that you're still alive and fighting.

Sometimes you will feel like it's for the best.
No more pain.
No more burden.
No more uncertainties.
No more troubling others.
But when you really think about it- life, you will want nothing but to be given the chance to bounce back, be healthier, and stronger.

The only assurance we can get, is by reminding the people around us, that we love them.
Being afraid or ashamed to show affection is stupid, because those are really unspoken means of showing love and care.
Thank them, for being who they are.
Thank them for impacting your being.
Thank them for everything they have ever done for you.
And pray for them.
Pray that they will be blessed with a long, fruitful and blissful life.
Pray that your love for them will last through trials.
And at the end of this all, you will find that there's barely space for regret.

And for now, goodbye is not forever.
Goodbye means: Until we meet again.

What do we remember them by?
What do you want people to remember you by?

personal portfolio

Hello!

So my plans to study were foiled (yet again) because we decided to go to the beach.

Brought along some notes and paint but i ended up only painting.

Tomorrow's another miss day since i'll be going out again.

I'm worried that if I give a letter for my absence last thursday i'd be barred from exams.

Which would really really suck.

And then i'd literally be stuck in life.

Please please i'm praying that it won't happen.

Whatevs, here are some photos for today.

Wackadoodlewhut

Hello!
Ehh as yall know I am still in touch with my imaginary friends.
And just now, i had an encounter.
Kinda freaky, but whatevs I like it.
So i was late to meet my bestfriend, and the bus kept stopping at every stop.
I told one of my imaginary friends to tell the bus driver to NOT stop at anymore stops.
and then an old grandma who was sitting beside me tried to press the bell but it didn't work.
she tried several times and I was groaning inside my head saying,
"Not to her!" to tell my imaginary friend to just give her a chance.
And right after I said it, the bell worked.
HAHAHA I know i sound like a freaking nut case but whatevs i'm just bringing joy into this........ blog.

Ok back to the real deal.
I'm expected to finish my business tutorial questions by tonight.
I mean, come on!
I only got the text this morning D:
loser!
Met up with yol for a bowling outing, it's always great meeting her.
Being surrounded with so many unreliable people in ehem my new school ehem, having an old pal who is trustable is so... nice.
We were supposed to exchange gift but i misplaced my gift for her so.......... heh.
Anyway we were both late, which was great xD
Played 2 rounds and I won both (unquestionably)
oh bowling was her treat ;)
thanks jurrasic (she put this name in the birthday note she left me)
after that headed to yishun for food (i wanted to say early dinner but who really follows the concepts? not me)
Had tons of laughter and amazing conversations slash rants today.
We were bummed that fatinelly couldn't join us D:
Uhh, it's alright, there's always another day.

Sooo i was supposed to watch conjuring tonight with my annoying sister (whom i suspect to be the culprit for yol's missing present) but uh lazy.
I'm so tempted to go out again tomorrow but......... exams are coming and I need the grades.
right?
for the first time i'm saying all this shit.
the system forces me to do it.
*sighs dramatically*
lolololol.
Okay, back to my tutorial.
(actually i havent even started)
Enjoy your september holidays!

Believe

Sometimes you find inspiration in someone who's already there; the place you badly want to be in right now.
things feels impossible to achieve.
sometimes, our inspirations just isn't enough to motivate.
and sometimes, we doubt them.
what if there's someone out there who, like you, dreams of the world?
what if that person already took that extra step you needed to get there.

Remember, no matter how minute and insignificant you think you are right now, it's all in your hands to step out and demand the world to acknowledge you and the amazing things you are capable of.
You just gotta prove yourself worthy, and your fairytale will eventually come true
You may seem far from it right now, but by believing and imagining,

you're halfway there.

Booker T in Singapore

GUYS COME ON, DON'T TELL ME YOU DON'T FEEL MY EXCITEMENT.

IT'S BOOKER T FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

I THINK I'D HAVE A HEARTATTACK

JUST SEEING THAT FACE A FEW METRES AWAY FROM ME WOULD MAKE ME HAPPY FOR LIFE LA OK.

NEXT UP: PLEASE BRING WWE TO SINGAPORE.

MI World Trip 2013: Jakarta, Indonesia (Part 1)

Hello!

Finally got all the pictures in my laptop so now, a proper post.

I'll pretty much do it chronologically.

 I hope that when I read this post 20 years down the road, i'll still feel the excitement i feel when I was there.

So, enjoy!

Day 1: 24th August 2013

So, the night before the trip, I went for Hari raya house visiting with my friends, and reached home about 12am.

We were supposed to be at the airport at 5am, so I set my alarm at 2.30am.

Ended up waking at 3am.......... :')

This time, my dad sent me to the airport so we reached pretty fast (though I could barely open my eyes the whole journey there)

But once we reached the airport, all my tiredness were gone.

Excitement filled my whole soul!

Got some coffee and settled down with my parents while waiting for the rest.

We checked in, and sat at coffee bean for a tad.

TERMINAL 3 IS GIGANTIC.

We had to take the skytrain to go to our gate.

So came our flight time!

(I really love the aeroplane why is it so amazing)

I got the window seat 

//screams//

Got to sit beside nur farah liyana!

So let me tell you, on this trip I knew noone except syuhada and amirul.

(compared to the brunei trip where i knew half of the people)

So this was a great, great way to make new friends.

I really love this bunch of people!

This flight was AMAZING because why?!

Are you REALLY asking me why!?

CAUSE TWO DEMI ALBUMS WERE IN THEIR MUSIC PLAYLIST

//SCREAMS//

I was literally among the clouds

(omg i've always wanted to say that)

(dream come true)

FYI i didn't bring my phone for the trip :(

The battery was problematic and I didn't have time to buy.

Brought an iPad along instead!

Okay so we reached, the airport reminded me of Brunei's!

The weather was alike Singapore's, so we were fine.

We then met the really bubbly, well read, knowledgeable and humble tour guide!

Pak Hilman is his name, and he was really engaging and entertaining.
We were greeted with traditional cakes, kuih lapis and (one more i forgot the name).

Our first stop: Sunda kelapa harbour

A beautiful marina.

He told us the rich history of the place, from the history of the dutch right up to the present.

The weather was hot, but I didn't care because the sky was a beautiful shade of blue.

Captured a few photos and we're back on the bus.

On the bus, our two accompanying teachers were lecturing and demanding us for answers when they asked us questions about every place we visited.

Their strictness lasted a few minutes before their fun side came out, and they fitted in with us as students.

Miss Choo and Miss Adilah, you guys are the best!

We then drove to fatahillah square, a place where the Dutch colonial rules' were kept sake.

Got a few photos and saw some amazing street buskers.

These babies are for rent, and they come with cute matching straw hats! xD

This is the water jail, where prisoners are kept in a cell filled with water up to their necks as a form of punishment during the colonial rules. (i think)

We then walked to the Kota intan bridge, which holds a deep meaning in the Indonesian history.

After that, we visited the national museum.

Here, my interest peaked because we get to see how rich Indonesia is culture-wise.

There were models of different kinds of houses, which were super dope

 (and we got to see them in real life on the second day!)

We then took a (what felt like half an hour) drive to restoran raja kuring.

Everyone was sleeping on this journey!

(duh, waking up at 3am!)

On the way there we drove on a puddle of water, because apparently the drain near the road was overflowed

 (we could see how high the tide was!)
Then, we reached the empty restaurant.

It looked very 'atas', and the food was nice!

My tablemates were forced by the dictator (ms choo) to finish all the food and yo we did it!

When I went to the toilet, this tai-tai looking old lady spoke to me in bahasa,

Thanks to Indonesian sinetrons, I could communicate effectively.

(effectively being me pretending to be a part of them)

After that, we visited the Monas; Indonesia's national monument.

From left to right, Demi lovato (HAHA), syuh, poh ee, farah nur liyana, diana, farah dina and nur farah liyana

(scrabble much)

(inside joke)

We then visited Istiqlal mosque, and then we were off to dinner!

We went to a restaurant called Ikan bakar cianjur (IBC) and ate like 2 kinds of fishes and other dishes.

We then went to a convenient store AND I BOUGHT MY BENG BENG!

//SCREAMS//

but technically farah dina paid for it so.... heheh she bought my beng beng.

After the sumptuous meal, we were given an hour and a half to shop at (omg let me go and find out the name and i'll edit this)

So in the bus on the way to the hotel, we were given a namelist to order some traditional cakes, and Syuh pointed out that my birth date was highlighted.

(I didn't notice at first)

After that, we checked into Bluesky hotel around 8pm (which felt like 10pm)

Once we reached the lobby we were greeted with drinks.

Yay hotels.

My awesome roomate was Poh ee.
And our room was literally at the end of the corridor, facing a wall and beside the stairs!
Cool shit
(i can make noise at night meh)

um... heh.

Watched a documentary about earth with her, syuh and farah nur liyana.

(fyi there were 4 people named farah in the trip!)

And finally when someone came to survey our rooms, (supposedly lights off at 10pm) syuh and farah went back to their rooms.

Left the TV on because poh ee likes to sleep that way and I didn't mind it.
and I spent the whole night waking up every hour

CAUSE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY NIGHT

//I SAY YEAH//

And finally switched off the TV at 3am!

Goodnight, Jakarta. 

You've been great so far.

Here's to another long day.

Excited because it's my birthday and we're meeting our buddies!

Day 2: 25th August 2013

Ok so the teachers told us to assemble by 7am Jakarta time (8am SG time)

So I set my alarm at 6.45am SG time (5.45 Jakarta time)

When my alarm rang and I saw the time, I jumped out of the bed and ran to the toilet, panicking.

I was furiously debating whether to bathe first or wake Poh ee up first, only to remember that I had a good hour more to sleep if I wanted to :')

Pai seh!

So, rise and shine, a happy, happy birthday to me.

Went for breakfast with Syuh (Poh ee went with farah nur liyana), and umm we tried to go up to our rooms but we didn't know how to operate the lift xD

Luckily, a local family were going to the same floor as us so ting ting ting, we were saved!

Dragged our luggage down and waited at the lobby.

Miss adillah wished me a happy birthday, aww.

Thank you very nice ;)

We then embarked (lolol) on a drive to pick up our buddies!

(Omg, I was looking forward for this since Ms choo told me that I was chosen for this trip)
On our way, they sang me a birthday song and I was smiling to myself HAHA.
(yesterday, we sang ms adilah a birthday song for fun when it wasn't her birthday hahaha!)

So in an email we received a week before the trip, and on the paper we received the morning at the airport, it was stated that my buddy would be a female.

So we stayed in the bus while some indonesian students boarded it.

There was a guy in white and me and syuh were exchanging looks like, "oh look so cute"

So they were announcing names so that we could identify our buddies.

And they said my buddy's name so I raised up my hand.

There was a girl behind the white shirt guy, and i thought she was my buddy.

BUUUUUT *jengjengjeng*, it turned out that my buddy WAS THE GUY.

Everyone was exclaiming and making noise and me and syuh were laughing like freaking idiots because the whole incident was so unexpected and hilarious! xD

So we had to stand up and introduce ourselves (yes, in the bus)

and when it was my turn Ms choo announced that it was my birthday.

(i had to put that in)

(why)

(because i appreciate it)

Um me and my buddy didn't talk much cause his girl friends and him were busy talking and I was busy talking to nur farah liyana :')

We first went to fatahilla square again to visit the wayang museum, which was so cool!

Watched a puppet show and witnessed syuh do her first dare of making haidhar say the word 'cucumber'

Here was their conversation

Syuh: You know what vegetable is in nasi lemak?
Him: Um,spinach?
(i was laughing furiously beside syuh)
syuh: No, oh yes it's called 'timun'! What's timun in english?
Him: Cucumber!

Hahahaha sweet memories!

Ok then, (as a supposedly bonding activity i guess) we went to a shopping mall called ITC.. (or something)

and Pak Hilman told us that it was not a large mall, only six storeys high.

So we were like okay....

And when we reached there my jaw dropped cause WHAT THE HELL IS THEIR DEFINITION OF BIG.

the mall was HUGE.

(photo from google)

If it was not, there were like a billion shops!

We were given one and a half hours to shop and I only managed to go no more than 2 storeys (and it was only one side of the mall!)

*Exclaims exclaims*

Sat down at A&W for awhile cause someone thought we were supposed to assemble at 11.45am when in fact we were supposed to meet at 12.45pm.... xD

it's okay, honest mistake.

And gosh, the food was so........cheap T.T

I wished Singapore's were like that!

(but then we'd all be obese)

(the variety of food in SG is fantabulous)

and might I say it: it's frigging A&W!

When is it coming back to singapore!?

(never)

//ok so at this time i tried googling for answers but i didn't get any//

Sat with pramesti (Syuh's amazing buddy) and syuh.

After that, we went for lunch at another kuring restaurant (i forgot the name slap me)

(actually 2nd day lacks photos because my iPad was almost dead and i was chargerless)

the food was great, and I ended up sitting with the dictators again.

but this time they were so nice to me!

ms adillah gave me extra chicken, and ms choo served me satay ;)

"Must treat the birthday girl specially"

After the amazing lunch, we went for a looong drive to Taman mini Indonesia.

It was super cool!

It was like a theme park and heck it was large!

we got to see the houses which we saw in the museum yesterday in real life, and it was the coolest thing ever!

I was in love with this cone-shaped house yesterday, and I got to enter it today!

//screams//

I don't have a photo of it yet, but I will get hold of it!

In the meanwhile, the huts we saw!

We then took a drive for dinner at warung teko, a restaurant opposite IBC we ate at yesterday.

The spread was fantabulous!

Sat at the table with such hilarious people which killed me!

with their jokes ofcourse.

AND THEN,
the bus driver suddenly stopped in the middle of the road and the teachers and Pak hilman ran down the bus.
we waited for like 10 mins,and in the meanwhile I was laughing so hard at amirul, haidhar, shafiqah and farah nur liyana.
one of the teachers came and called for syuhada and I was kinda worried cause I thought they were sending her to the clinic or something since she was not feeling well.
And like five minutes later they came with a cake AWWWW STOP.
they sang like 3 different birthday songs and we ended up cutting the cake (ms adilah's newest adventure) while the bus was moving!
Thank you so much for your thoughfulness guys,
i really loved it!

After that, was the time I was excited for since forever

the meeting with our foster families and homestay!

We reached their school around 7.30pm (which felt like 9pm)

and rayhan, my buddy's mum was there.

It was so surreal!

It felt weird when their driver helped carry my luggage but..... heh thanks.

Met his sister, Jasmin in the car and I found that she actually turned 17 on the 17th of august!

We wished each other happy birthday (HAHA)

(thanks to my buddy who told them)

(i appreciate it)

We drove to their house and I came across cultural difference number 1:

wearing your shoes up to your room!

It was really cool being able to experience weird things xD
I was given my own room and I think I fell asleep around 11pm, (which felt like 1am)
and woke up several times in case I missed the alarm which I set at 6.45am SG time (5.45 jakarta time) which was stupid because they told me that they usually wake up at 5am.

But luckily I woke up at 5.45am SG time (4.45am jakarta time)
Off to school we were!

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Part 2 to be continued

Bigger than life

Hello!

Just so you know i've been writing my jakarta post since yesterday, (it's been 4 hours now) but i'm only at the second day!

I can't believe I didn't go back to CHR today! D:

But maybe it's for the good cause....

LOL.

Okay so GUESS WHAT!

Nope!

NOPPPEEE

NOOOOOOO

(ok talking to myself)

BOOKER FREAKING T IS COMING TO BUGIS IN TWO DAYS TIME

//SCREAMS AS LOUD AS THE LOUDEST SOUND ON EARTH//

If this is starhub's way to attract customers can I scream 

IT'S WORKING

because right now i want nothing more than to throw out my mio box (sorry baby)

BECAUSE BOOKER.

I'm like in shock excitement mega uncontrollable emotions 

(that sentence made no sense)

(whatevs)

OK let me scream in peace bye!

Adeu ^^

200 to goodbye

HELLO!

Smiled when i saw that I am 200 posts away from 619.

Got to start thinking of a new URL!

D:

I kinda gotten attached to this blog cause it took like 3-5 years to reach my goal.

I'm making a birthday post for myself, eatgo and raiyini later.

Do wait please xD

adeu ^^